Tonight my thoughts are blank.
Theres so much I dont understand.
I think about what once was real.
I thought I knew firsthand.
How wrong I was deep in this case
for I was weak again.
Preparing for this aftermath.
When does it finally end?
I think about how alone i feel
and how I want to cry.
It feels like I am falling apart inside.
Like something has finally died.
My heart is hurting for what isnt close.
I have to think about my life.
I have to prepare for whats not known.
I must focus on whats right.
Slowly I begin to see
whats left of who I am.
A hollow shell of emptiness.
The shell of a lonely man.
Ive journeyed in pain and back.
Its kept me immune to giving up.
Ine toughed it out and I dont know how
but I still give a fuck.
I have this hope so deep inside
that will not go away
and even though I am alone
I know it will become ok.