i told u i was broken. my mind does not function any more. the woman i gave up everything for to provide for her and her kids decide i wasnt worth her time when it started and i asked her for help. drinking was the only thing she cared about and she didnt need some broken down weak warhorse bothering her. its only got worse since then. i try to talk to girls on here and get my mind working again but just like with u i was trying to say something nice i thought and u run away like im an insane maniac. i will leave u alone and try to find my way out of this living hell the way i lived my whole life. ALONE