The TY's blog: "ALONE"

Im not the most social person usually unless im with my very few close friends or my other family ("NO REGRETS") and getting to the subject which has to do with Thanksgiving....This year my family planned on going out of town and i was welcomed with open arms by my aunt whose house its being held at and come to find out my dad has told my mom he doesnt want me to go and it seems he doesnt want me around any family when they do things...its like hes holding my injury and lack of work against me and makes me think hes emabarrassed of me which deep down really hurts knowing i already spend 95% of my time alone because of where i live the drama is so high and everyone has to talk shit about everyone including me and the only way i found to deal with it is to not go anywhere and stay home...Im just really confused as why he feels that way and if i were to say anything to him he will fly off the handle and let everyone else have to see it...Im just not sure what to do