Rawpoison99's blog: "Alone in the Dark"

What's inside... Category: Writing and Poetry ©®-- Alone in the dark, It's the same in hours of light, By myself when He's with me, No peace in my dreams at night. i don't even exist, Unless it's time for a fight, my heart's cold and empty, i know it's not right. He wants me to cook and clean, Demands that i pleasure Him with delight, Calls Himself a man, After He hurts me for spite. His cruel behavior wounds deeply, my chest aches and squeezes my soul painfully tight, i wish it untrue, "His bark is worse than His bite." Naive with unconditional forgiveness, Lying to myself every night, i need Daddy's protection, Spirits refuse to comfort or grant me true sight!

©A man says, "I wouldn't have beat her if she didn't deserve it and it's not like I did it all the time."
The womans friend stands there by the door silently as not to provoke the situation. Eight months later that same man says to the woman, "When the divorce goes through, I don't care what anyone has to say, I had no fault in this. I wouldn't have done those things if you were different and did what I wanted of you."
She hurts from the boiling poison his word burn into her half dead soul. Ready to erupt if her pride would allow such a man this pleasure. She replies in a calm, low tone, "No woman deserves any abuse, let alone every abuse possible which has been repeatedly inflicted over five long years. A real caring man would walk away or punch a wall, anything but take sadistic twisted pleasure from harming another human, man or woman, child or animal."
Any one who knows a person as cruel as the man in this story had better run far away and not ever look back!!!

Tuesday, January 16, 2007 Change this life ©®-- I could have been smarter, I could have been prettier, I could be thinner. I should have cleaned more, I should have gotten some sleep, I should have been silent. I would have deserved your love, I would have captured your heart, I would have done anything. I DO NOT EXIST, I AM MARKED UNWORTHY, I AM A BURDEN. Make me your puppet, Make me your partner, Make me wake up!!!

Monday, February 05, 2007 Soul Sweet Current mood: crushed Category: Writing and Poetry ©®-- Soul Sweet: Rapping against will Slipped from grasp Nothing Sacred All believed Not visible Locked within Pure Open See Hope Emotions unspoken Owned eternally Spirit released Peace realized Soul Sweet

Tuesday, December 11, 2007 I’d Rather Die than Fall in Love Again! Current mood: forgotten Category: Writing and Poetry © I offer my heart. Your rip it from my chest. Just like the rest. The ache is constant. The pit is hollow. My tears are all that can fill the void! Sorrow and dread... My days to come. I'm completely undone. Tired of trying. Wish for my time of dying. Till then I sit here alone and wait and cry and my soul has died. Body slowly trails the path left behind! (It makes sense to me)