Princess Aleash's blog: "allmylifexoxo"

a really good friend of mine was in a bad motorcycle accident the other day...he broke his arm, has his jaw wired shut, and may not walk again...he is only 20, full of life....he is a cali bro to the core, so losing his ability to walk or drive a truck or ride a bike would destroy him...please keep him in ur prayers, he means alot to me..thank you and always wear you helmet!!!

well folks today is 9/11...its been a long 6 years and here we are again...we all remember where we were the towers fell...we all remember when we saw it for the first time on the news, and we all remember sheading tears over the sensless loss of life. And each and every one of us is somehow connected to the brave men and women fighting over there...they miss home terribly. On this day let us all remember them over there, let us say a silent prayer, a let us think about them for just a moment...because when there country neede them they were there ready to fight for our frredom and our saftey. I will never forget what happened that day, i will never forget our soliers over there and i will never stop praying for thire safe return . I have friends over there and i want them to know i think of them everyday....i love them all and my heart goes out to them. Just letting you know that when you feel like tomarrow will never come and when you think noone cares anymore just remember that i care and i will never let you out of my heart and never let you out of my mind....so lets say good morning to 9/11 and think about it feel it adn remember it because our past never dies and we cannot change what happened but we can look forward to tomarrow because nothing can phase us now....UNITED WE STAND!!!!

well there ya go....listening to the same old music but the feeling has left me....that feeling of being looked at for more then a friend,it starts with a good bye, and ends in tears... and the middle is sadness and grief, losing someone so close to you hurts...hurts worse then you can imagine, i guess im going to have to cry until i have no more tears, i guess im going to have to look at my heart in a few pieces instead of being whole....and one day a man will come along and help me pick up whats left of me.. he will hold me in strong, gentle arms, look into my eyes and tell me its ok to be sad , and its ok to love again...its ok to throw that t-shirt away, its ok to make love all night long again, its ok to let your heart all go...let it go into the arms of another...i wonder what it is like to feel love so great it hurts you to be apart? i wonder what it is like to have a man all to yourself? i wonder what it is like to be loved by someone with all their heart? i wonder what it is like to feel so much for some one and have them feel the same way... ??? these are the things i wonder about...??

how many times a day would you kiss me? would you have sex with me? how many times a day would you just want to hold me? would you take me places? would you love me? if we went out on a date would u have me pay for it? would you take me anywhere special? If I was sick... what would you do? If one a my friends tried to get with you what would you do? would u tell me? would u listen to all my problems and help me solve them? Would u introduce me to your mom/dad? Would you care about what i wore when we out ? Would you go to the Club with me? If your friend tried to get at me what would you do? If someone tried to fight with me infront of you what would you do? If a girl/guy tried to talk or dance with you at the club what would u do? If i cheated on you would you take me back? Would u give me your myspace password? If i gave you mine would you read all my mail? If i said i loved you would you say it back?

well this morning after 3 hours of sleep....a white dove landed on my patio and made itself at home.....maybe its a sign....after last night....maybe its a sign coming down from above....literally....so we will see if this dove brings me good luck in a certain area in my life.....

this isnt about the weather...lol as tears fill her eyes i can hear on the other line how much she hurts and all i can do is sit here and listen to my best friend cry and cry hard...cry for her baby and for her husband that is distancing himself from her....i can hear the sadness in her voice...then i hear the guy i have known for a while say "man how did i get her....pregnant...??" then i get on the phone again and her my other girlfriend say how much she misses her fiance....and how nauseated she is....(ya i know alot of pregnant people) then i sit here and wonder will i ever get to feel love again, will i get to feel a baby move inside me when the time is right...? i hope one day i will but for now i sit here and wonder when this time will come, who will love me for everything i have, who can i gie my love to forever? i forever a guarenteed now?? doesnt seem like it, i want forever, i want that love that makes me want to sing in the shower, grin from ear to ear, i want to feel that forever....just the question now is when will it come??