... I find myself with friends I don't feel I deserve. I'm not the best person to reply to an email, send an email, or especially start conversations. There seems to be something about me that keeps me from fully connecting with anyone. Just tonight, I was reminded about the unconditional friendship. I hurt a friend bad (in my heart) and after months of not talking, she still accepted me. Not that feelings are like they were, but she didn't turn me away. Okay, I'm drunk-typing again, so I better end this one before I spill my drink and short my keyboard ... just got my system running again and don't need to fuck it up again ... LOL
