Demotrix's blog: "Alive....."

Standing alone inside means no one can be close, you can trust no one and expect only pain, to stand alone is to be alone, and for those who choose to stand alone will have not a purpose nor true place to call home...the way of the longer warrior is what calls many of us and for some they ignore and overcome it...but what about those who dont but cant follow it?...will they never find happiness?...will they ever find a place to accomplish this want...this need?....I guess someday I may find out

emotion...it can be a curse.  a curse..... can break the soul.  when a soul is broken...it becomes empty.  when the soul is empty....it is dead.  when it is dead....what happens to it? where does it go? does the body die with it?  does the will to exist end with the soul?  or can it be renewed?  would there be a want for renewal?  if the soul n will is renewed will it ever be the same?  can one return to life from death and be happy even? with they want to? maybe its best to just be dead inside til the light comes and renews the soul for them so happiness will shine out the clearer...but how long will it take for that light to shine and can one last that long...its all left up to one thing...and that is.....you.....

How does one know when they are no longer alive inside?  Is it when the presence that kept them forward is gone....or the present of it?  Is it when your drive to live diminished or when it's at full?  Maybe it is when when one is alive they are no longer alive as those around them influence them and alter themselves so that they become blind to what is around them....Maybe it is when all they once had held dear is gone...or even when they awaken to a truth they were kept known from knowing in an attempt to protect them.  Maybe one no longer lives inside when they are kept from it.  If any of these are true can one peer at themselves and ever see the are no longer alive inside...and if so can they accept it and continue forward beyond the boundaries of life inside one's soul? and if not what becomes of them? where do they end up they can't push forward or even when they can?  Are they able to bring life back to themselves inside when it dies inside?  Can the body life on without the soul impacting it's death onto the mind?  Can any of these questions be known? Would they even want to be known to the person or those around them?  Can one replaces what caused them to be alive inside to return...or would they even want to?  Is it when one is born when they begin to live....or is it when they finally die inside they can begin to live truly and for themselves?  Can't life be breathed from death and reborn anew or can it only be crushed?  Some would say that you cannot be born without dying first? So what happens when they die a second time? What happens if they body died and was reborn and then they soul was?  Do they become something else for the better or for the worse?  Can someone change from a want to die to a want to live when they die inside? Or can one never change even when life is reborn anew inside of their aching soul?  Should one try to bring life back to their soul when all around them leans toward more dying inside....or can they rise up above it and be alive once more?  Would they want to?......Maybe dying and being reborn inside are one in the same....for when one sheds the existence of their past can they only truly be reborn and become what they dream of becomming with all their soul.....And finally see the light holding them there all along that they never saw before....and from there push further stronger then ever before done and reach for the power to reach it back from the inside that so recently died and was reborn anew.  Then one can reach the light in their soul and become their own hero...their own dream...and then become the dream for others and help push them forward even after the body dies.....sometimes it is good for history to repeat itself or inspire others to change themselves....to not let the dying inside stop their return to life but to use it to push you forward once more and realize WHO YOU ARE and WHAT YOU WILL BECOME.....the body only emulates the soul and so the dreams cause the body to change the person, even if they must first die inside for it to happen.  The one thing science can and will never be able to explain is this sort of drive and why science's restraints on humanity will always be more then shattered they will be denied correct and why life will always defeat death and become life once more....why no matter the odds hope will always prove right and the impossible become the possible....and why eveil will never win in the end....the power of the soul can never be measured for under present of a need it's power will always increase so that those hopes and dreams we long for will always come true and the end will shine brightly no matter if you die inside or not.......How does one know when they are no longer alive inside?  Is it when the presence that kept them forward is gone....or the present of it?  Is it when your drive to live diminished or when it's at full?  Maybe it is when when one is alive they are no longer alive as those around them influence them and alter themselves so that they become blind to what is around them....Maybe it is when all they once had held dear is gone...or even when they awaken to a truth they were kept known from knowing in an attempt to protect them.  Maybe one no longer lives inside when they are kept from it.  If any of these are true can one peer at themselves and ever see the are no longer alive inside...and if so can they accept it and continue forward beyond the boundaries of life inside one's soul? and if not what becomes of them? where do they end up they can't push forward or even when they can?  Are they able to bring life back to themselves inside when it dies inside?  Can the body life on without the soul impacting it's death onto the mind?  Can any of these questions be known? Would they even want to be known to the person or those around them?  Can one replaces what caused them to be alive inside to return...or would they even want to?  Is it when one is born when they begin to live....or is it when they finally die inside they can begin to live truly and for themselves?  Can't life be breathed from death and reborn anew or can it only be crushed?  Some would say that you cannot be born without dying first? So what happens when they die a second time? What happens if they body died and was reborn and then they soul was?  Do they become something else for the better or for the worse?  Can someone change from a want to die to a want to live when they die inside? Or can one never change even when life is reborn anew inside of their aching soul?  Should one try to bring life back to their soul when all around them leans toward more dying inside....or can they rise up above it and be alive once more?  Would they want to?......Maybe dying and being reborn inside are one in the same....for when one sheds the existence of their past can they only truly be reborn and become what they dream of becomming with all their soul.....And finally see the light holding them there all along that they never saw before....and from there push further stronger then ever before done and reach for the power to reach it back from the inside that so recently died and was reborn anew.  Then one can reach the light in their soul and become their own hero...their own dream...and then become the dream for others and help push them forward even after the body dies.....sometimes it is good for history to repeat itself or inspire others to change themselves....to not let the dying inside stop their return to life but to use it to push you forward once more and realize WHO YOU ARE and WHAT YOU WILL BECOME.....the body only emulates the soul and so the dreams cause the body to change the person, even if they must first die inside for it to happen.  The one thing science can and will never be able to explain is this sort of drive and why science's restraints on humanity will always be more then shattered they will be denied correct and why life will always defeat death and become life once more....why no matter the odds hope will always prove right and the impossible become the possible....and why eveil will never win in the end....the power of the soul can never be measured for under present of a need it's power will always increase so that those hopes and dreams we long for will always come true and the end will shine brightly no matter if you die inside or not.......always remember those rolling days and push forward........