i'm sure everyone feels this way every so often...but to feel this way nearly constantly?...there must be something wrong...having friends turn away...have that look in their eye like ur nothing more than a pane of glass...they're staring right throught you...like you u have no substance to you...
i feel like i've become a lesser being...unworthly of acknowledgement...forget the good deeds or accomplished tasks...you have ur own life to live...why would mine make any difference to you?...what should it matter that i stumble and fall...or if i rise up and succeed?...
and those breif moments that you do care...are they worth it?...should i bother suffering the suspicion that your toying with me again?...will it make any difference tomorrow?...you'll just go back to seeing past me...its plain to me that u only keep me around for entertainment...
some affection...thats all...with out me begging...some how letting me know someone cares...that i dont need to reach to find you...that your already here...
then again...being outside you may be better...
