Agervation have u ever been so avervated with people that you just want to start bitching everyone in sight? But you dont you take it out on the ones that mean the most to you then you feel like shit after words. Thats me right now and because im who i am i'm comein here to blog and so i dont say something i know im going to regret saying after its all done and over with. I've gotten to the point anymore that i cant stand being around people because looks or anything has just about set me off. Small things and big things just upset me and i cant express it becuase its no anyones fault really its everyones fault even mine. Specaily when someone is asked about something or asked to do something and all that happens is not a damm things. It's really agervateing to the point that even the smart people are being stupid and to all stupid people they all need to be shot. Am i saying that everyone needs to be shot no but damm it dont take many people to think things over and to get things right....Take some coman sense to your self and figure it out that its not all about certian things or certian people anymore.....I have done and learned so much in life that i understand when something has to be seen or understood then i need to do it and make the face forword to get it all down....Im sick and tired of being agervated by so many things and people that im snaping at people for NO REASON, and that bothers me because im not that kinda person. Im the kinda person that has the nice kind side to them and when something needs to be done or talked about I talk to my best friend and he in return helps me through what ever needs to be helped with and i thank him more and more each and ever day for it all and he even knows that im thankfull. But lately ive stayed away from him because im so worried that im going to open and blow so far off that even he will wonder about me. Ive brought myself to the point that i dont care no more weather things happen or not. I just want the agervation to end so i can go back to the fun careing kind person that everyone so claims see's me as.
Why am i so avgervated, Well were to start. Im tired of people thinking that they can walk on me...they cant so walk some were else. Im tired of being there for people, and when i needs them they cant be there for me. Im tired of people thinking they can use me for whatever they want and then just walking away. Please get a life. Im tired of asking for help and it never gets done, if you sayour going to do something then do it. Im just down right tired of alot of things. I've really thought about being the Mandie that everyone used to know and crawl back in the shell and then cant be bothered with the petty thing, bullshit things, or haveing to be worried about things that arent my concern but i worry because i care so damm much about alot of people.
Its a wonder that im still around for alot of people after all they have done for me and said to me. I guess that falls back to were i was raised were i was taught not to hurt people, hate people, or turn your back on people because you never know were or when you may need that person. I guess maybe before i crawl back into my shell i need to let the ones know why im agervated to them and then make my way to were i need to be. If they cant understand then im sorry for them i wasnt made for them to see the world and i wasnt placed here to make there life pretty. Im gonna close this blog now. I hope everyone has a great weekend and has fun and stays safe.....
Lots of love to my great friends that i have made on here
Mandie
