freakyone's blog: "Afraid of the Dark No More"

    I had a different encounter with God today.Let me share this with my essay/custom essay He gave me another experience wherein He assured me that He truly is alive and that He will never leave me hopeless and alone.
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 Well, let me start by sharing what I did yesterday.

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I had been in church; I worship-led in the morning, had lunch with my church mates, hosted a program for the youth at past noon (“Banana Party”), and in the late afternoon I practiced together with my band mates, Sacred Silence. It was really a fun day and I was truly so filled and blessed with the Holy Spirit.

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When I got home, I felt physically tired and so, I had dinner and after I ate, I rested in front of the T.V. Actually, I wasn’t able to absorb whatever was shown on the television. My mind drifted somewhere else. On what? I couldn’t even remember. Yeah, and that’s quite odd.
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    I glanced at the wall-clock. Forty-five minutes after eleven. I didn’t recognize that time flew that fast. I got up from the sofa, got myself an iced-tea drink from the fridge and enjoyed it’s coolness in my throat.  My thirst was quenched, and then I went back to my comfy seat.
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With the physical weariness that I have felt earlier, I would have wanted to go to bed and snooze, but I was far from feeling sleepy. What’s more is that I had this uncomfortable feeling deep inside me. It was gloomy, like a deep feeling of unhappiness I couldn’t quite explain. I shrugged it off, and decided to watch DVD movies till I feel sleepy. I watched a suspense one, ‘Disturbia’, but I wasn’t still feeling sleepy as it ended so I let another movie play. This time it was a feel-good one, which was ‘The Firehouse Dog’.
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    When the movie ended, it was already 2:40 a.m. Still, sleep was far from my grasp. I went to my room, jumped on my bed, pulled up the sheets, and covered my face with my favorite pillow. The grim atmosphere that I felt a few hours earlier recurred. That murky feeling consumed my heart. And then, I found myself sobbing… crying my eyes out. Was I losing my mind?