And another day I am awoken with a phone call that one of my best friends has passed away. Her name is Adrianna..I called her many things including Adiedoo, Adri-ya-ya, or just Adri. Her brother called me this morning, and I won't go into details because I am not sure what the family wants, but never the less, she is not here anylonger. I feel pissed at not only death itself, but at myself for the time I wasted not being around her. We were inseperable at one point, then when Dawn and I broke up things took a different turn. I suppose it was hard going from the "Trio" we were used to, down to dealing with me drinking my sorrows away at the local pub and watching me die slowly, and Dawn starting her new life, with her new college friends and new boyfriend. It was too much for her, and well..I was being selfish. I fucking hate myself for that. She saw both of her once "best friends" travel down different roads and become people she no longer recognized. Fuck man, thats just horrible. Thankfully I was smart and a few months ago contacted her again, and even more to be thankful for, was she decided to give me yet another chance. Thank you Adri...thank you so much.
I remember the first time I saw her again, it was like we picked up right where we left off..I hadn't laughed that hard in literally years. So many memories together..like the first time we all really hung out, we would come up with some of the most outrageous things and just make each other laugh. Our famous double mind fart, where we both convinced each other a female cow was a "Sow cow" and not just simply a cow, to when we were out at faire and we had all been drinking around the campfire and she asked me to accompany her to the potties where she ended up breaking her zipper and earning the name "Zippy". God, its sad to think I will never get to hear her laugh again. I can't help but feel that she isn't completely gone..I'm not sure if that is from my own stubbornness to let go, or if she really is here with us. Either way, I know she is no longer in pain.
I fucking miss you Adri...
-Kenji
