Survey
It's just 50 little ?s...
1.) What cuss word(s) do you use the most?
Shit, piss, fuck, cunt, cocksucker, mother-fucker, tits, fart, turn 'n twat... take your pick
2.) Do you own an iPod?
nope, just a tiny little MP3 player that's about half-way filled up.
3.) Who on your Myspace "Top Friends" list do you talk to the most?
I have NO fuckin' clue. I'm rarely on Myspace anymore.
4.) What time is your alarm clock set for?
It ain't...
5.) What color is your house?
livin' in an apt.
6.) Flip flops or sneakers?
neither. I prefer to wear shoes or boots
7.) Would you rather take the picture or be in the picture?
either or, I really don't care...
8.) What was the last movie you watched?
"Damage" starring Stone Cold Steve Austin (saw it in the theaters, loved it, so I bought a copy with a gift card I got)
9.) Do any of your friends have children?
Why, yes. My best friend (and current roommate) has 3. His youngest, Jurelle, is 6 and he's actually REALLY COOL little guy!
10.) Has anyone ever called you lazy?
uh, yeah, I get called that on a daily basis. It isn't ALWAYS true, I swear...
11.) Do you ever take medication to help you fall asleep faster?
yes, I usually have to, but it never "kicks in" quite fast enough
12.) What CD is currently in your CD player?
I listen to free Internet radio most of the time, now...
13.) Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk?
2%
14.) Has anyone told you a secret this week?
I plead the 5th...
15.) Have you ever given someone a hickey?
I'm takin' the 5th on that one, too.
16.) Who was the last person to call you?
Alyssa
17.) Do you think people talk about you behind your back?
I'm sure there are jealous, insecure losers out there who DO, but I really could not care less. They really COULDN'T have THAT MUCH to talk about when the subject is Yours Truly. And they wouldn't be "talking" about me. They'd be COMPLAINING about me...
18.) Did you watch cartoons as a child?
Well, of course! I mean, I WAS a child growing up in America in the mid-80s, so naturally during the ages 4-13 I was (weekly) sitting downstairs in front of the TV every Saturday morning for FOUR straight hours watching X-men and Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (ya know, shit like that...)
19.) How many siblings do you have?
2 little sisters (well, they're not so "little" anymore, they're 24 & 25 now)
20.) Are you shy around the opposite sex?
only if I'm severely attracted, but I can also "act" REALLY shy quite well, in fact (ya know, play "Hard To Get")
21.) What movie do you know every line to?
I don't know EVERY line, but I'm in the process of learning them; all 6 Star Wars episodes
22.) Do you own any band t-shirts?
I have 2 or 3 Metallica shirts
23.) What is your favorite salad dressing?
Bacon Ranch
24.) Do you read for fun?
yes and no. I mostly read to relax, but I have at times...
25.) Do you cry a lot?
only if it hurts like a BITCH
26.) Have you ever farted in public?
one more time, I'm gonna plead the 5th...
27.) Do you have a desktop computer or a laptop?
I gotta desktop. My best friend & roommate has a Gateway FX laptop that's worth 3 grand
28.) Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?
more piercings and MANY more tats (only have my earlobes pierced and 1 small tat on my right ankle so far)
29.) What is the weather outside like?
coldish, gray, overcast 'n dreary...
30.) Would you ever date someone covered in tattoos?
maybe not COVERED, but I like/want a BUNCH of ink, so yeah, I'd date her
31.) Do you think having sex before you're married is wrong?
nope. it ain't wrong at all
32.) When was the last time you slept on the floor?
I honestly can't remember
33.) How many hours of sleep do you need to in order to function adequately?
not much, between 6-8, I guess...
34.) Are you in love or lust?
truthfully, I've never actually been in love, but I really would LOVE to learn what it feels like. constantly lusting over (damn-near) any attractive young lady gets REAL old REAL quick...
35.) Are your days full and fast-paced?
not really, I don't function well under pressure...
36.) Do you pay attention to nutrition lists on cereal boxes?
I might look at them once and then immediately remember that I really don't give a shit
37.) How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
I'll turn 28 (9/10)
38.) Are you picky about spelling and grammar?
VERY!!!
39.) Have you ever been to Six Flags?
no, but my mom 'n sister went
40.) Do you get along better with the same or opposite sex?
opposite, ladies are generally more understanding and way more accepting, so, for those reasons, they're MUCH easier to get along with. then again, I AM heterosexual, so my attraction to most young ladies also helps me out in many social situations (more often than not)
41.) Do you like Cottage Cheese?
yes. my mom likes it with jalapeno jelly on top
42.) Do you sleep on your side, tummy, or back?
mostly my stomach, but I toss 'n turn, so I never know what I'll be laying on when I wake up
43.) Have you ever bid for something on eBay?
nope. nuttin'.
44.) Do you enjoy giving hugs?
"enjoy"?!? no, no, no... I LOOOOOOOVE giving hugs (especially to short [5'-5'8"], Southern, redheaded ladies)
45) What song did you last sing out loud?
my vocal cords atrophied (severely weakened due to lack of use during my 4.5 week coma) to a point to where my voice slurs when I speak, so I can't sing to save my life.I think it was probably some church hymn when I was like 7 or 8 years old
46) What is your favorite TV show(s)?
Law & Order, Jersey Shore (I honestly have ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA WHY that show appeals to/entertains me
47) Which celebrity (celebrities) dead or alive would you most like to have lunch with?
let's see, there's Harrison Ford, Sean Connery, Eva Mendes, Bobbi Billard, Carlos Mencia, Jeff Foxworthy, Nicholas Cage, Eddie Guererro, John Cena, Steve Austin, sooooooo many others to choose from...
48) Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
is THAT what that was? god, I just thought I was gonna puke or somethin', but uhh... lemme see... the last time was... uhh... oh, shit... uh... I plead the 5th
49) What 4is the one thing do you completely, totally and absolutely wish/ you had more than ANYTHING else?
a strong, steady, outrageously profitable Hustle
50) What is your favorite song, and who is it by?
"Broken" by Seether feat. Amy Lee of Evanescence
¦ Depression ¦
Honestly, sometimes it's not a hard thing NOT to have. Especially not if you're in my type of situation.
"So, what exactly is your situation?" you might ask. Well, buckle your seat belt, lock the door and hold on tight, 'cause here it comes:
If you've read some of my other blogs you probably know that I (in the past) suffered a Traumatic Brain Injury. ANYONE with a TBI knows just how fucking difficult it is to NOT have some form depression every single goddamn day. Sometimes it just really doesn't matter how many "good" things may (or may not) be currently happening to me, that fucker called Life Itself will ALWAYS find a way to look down on me and keep me down. I've dealt with numerous setbacks almost all my life (and most of those didn't occur until AFTER I suffered my TBI), and the things that I really want I rarely ever get, and then what I truly need I either just don't want it when I can get it, or fuckin' Life Itself will just find a way of denying it to me. My usual train of thought is: "After I get a hold of 'A' then acquiring 'B' shouldn't be all THAT hard, right?" More often than not, I'll get my hands on 'A', and then 'B' will either remain totally unreachable or the situation will utterly refuse to have ANYTHING to do with me. If you truly know me (and who I am) then you know who (and what) I'm talking about.
I'm sure many of you probably understand that it sounds pretty easy for me to become (and stay) depressed, now that you know what kind of shit I go through on a daily (almost hourly) basis. Most of the affore-mentioned shit doesn't come from any kind of outside influence, but is instead unwillingly (and unwittingly) created by my own psyche (subconscious mind) as my damaged mind quite often speaks to me in an EXTREMELY insulting and SEVERELY degrading manner.
I never want this to happen, but I can't stop it from happening, and I'm hopelessly trapped in an infinite spiraling vortex that NO ONE can possibly escape. No, I actually don't take medication for depression (though I probably should) and no, I don't see a psycologist for my undiagnosed case of depression (though I used to see one, just not for depression). No, I don't have even a sliver of hope for ANY kind of change whatsoever, and why yes, I really DO horrifically dread the future and quite fearfully anticipate discovering exactly just how The Powers That Be are going to violently stomp all of my unique feelings and emotions down into the black tar pit of Irrational Fear & Unfounded Dread, which ALWAYS, without fail, makes me feel an absolutely HUGE dose of profound disappointment when I wake up every morning ('cause I realize I'll just have to buck up, accept all the shit I'm being dealt for that day and then "keep on smiling"). Committing suicide was (at one time) an eventual plan, then it became a possibility, then it turned into The Only Way Out that I could even fathom, but now I've come to the conclusion that taking my own life is nothing more than A Pussy's Way Out, and I've also realized that there is much I have yet to experience, so many things I've never done, while there's also so, so, so many disappointments I have yet to experience.
Realistically, there is just so much worthless bullshit for me to look foward to.......
1) Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about....
2) Guys are more emotional than you think. If they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer then you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try. And usually for quite some time after the fact.
3) Guys go CRAZY over a girl's smile.
4) A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.
5) Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?... uh... nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are really thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.
6) If a guy tells you about his problems, he really just needs someone to listen to him. You actually don't NEED to give advice.
7) A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
8) GUYS LOVE A LOT YOU MORE THAN YOU LOVE THEM!!!
9) Guys use words like "hot" or "cute" to describe girls. They rarely use "beautiful" or "gorgeous." If a guy uses a word like that, he really loves you or (at least) likes you a whole hell of a lot.
10)If a guy does something really stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with that girl.
11)If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and he is really thinking about something.
12) When a guy says he is going crazy about a girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.
13)When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "I'm hurting. Please come and listen to me."
14)If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.
15) When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.
16) Guys really think that girls are strange and make unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them in spite of, or because of it.
17)A guy would give the world to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.
18)No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.
19)NOT ALL GUYS ARE RUDE!!! Just because ONE is RUDE doesn't mean he represents ALL of them.
20)WHEN A GUY SACRIFICES HIS SLEEP AND HEALTH JUST TO TALK TO YOU, HE REALLY LIKES YOU AND WANTS TO BE WITH YOU AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE.
21)Even if you dumped a guy months ago and he loved you then, he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life.