B a B i E V's blog: "ABOUT ME"

SO I WONDER WHAT LABELS U A GOOD MOTHER?? WHAT LABELS YOU A GOOD PERSON??  I THOUGHT IF YOU RESPECTED OTHER PEOPLE AND THEIR FELINGS, TRY TO LEAD YOUR KIDS IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION..TEACH THE RIGHT FROM WRONG...BUT IF THEY DONT FOLLOW YOUR ADVICE, I PRAY EVERY NGHT THAT GOD WIL WATCH OVER MY KIDS AND HELP LEAD THE PATH.. I THINK GOD SKIPPED ME BY, I THINK HE HAS HIS HEADPHONES ON WHEN I TALK..LIFE IS HARD BEING A SINGLE MOTHER IS HARD NOW IT CHRISTMAS AND I THINK ANY PARENT CAN AGREE THATS THE 1 DAY NOTHING ELSE MATTERS ALL U WANT TO SEE IS THOSE SMILES THE LAUGHS, THE HAPPINESS.... BUT THINGS ARE SO EXPENSIVE THIS SOCIETY ALMOST MAKES IT IMPOSSIBLE TO B ABLE 2 DO THAT ANYMORE.... TOYS ARE SO EXPENSIVE... IM SAD IM SAD 85% OF THE TIME THERES ALWAYS LIL WORRIES IN THE BACK OF MY HEAD.. I PUT ON A FACE EVERYDAY AND HOPE FOR THE BEST... GO THROUGH THE MOTIONS TELL PPL YOUR FINE WHEN DEEP DOWN UR HURTING SO MUCH.IM TIRED OF HURTING..WHEN IS IT GONA B MY TIME TO SMILE TO LIKE WHAT I SEE IN THAT MIRROR I LOOK IN EVERYDAY. WHEN?? SUMTIMES I THINK NEVER I THINK I WAS SKIPPED, PAST BY IDK. I HAVE TAUGHT MY KIDS FROM RIGHT AND WRONG.. WHAT DO YOU WHEN THEY SDTART GOING DWN THE WRONG PATH?? IF UVE READ MY OTHER BLOGS THEN U KNOW WHAT I HAVE BEEN THROUGH..I WANT MY DAUGHTER TO BE HER OWN PERSON A STRONG MINDED PERSON...NOT A FOLLOWER. IM SINGLE, ITS ME AND MY 2 KIDS I DONT BRING DIFFERENT PPL AROUND MY HOUSE I DONT BELIEVE IN MY KIDS SEEING ME WITH DIFFERENT GUYS..I DONT LET 2 MANY PPL INTO MY HEART BECAUSE 9 OUT OF TEN TIMES IMMA GET HURT ANYWAY..I DNT ASK FOR DIAMONDS I WANT HAPPINESS I WANT MY HEART TO FEEL CONTENT... I WANT TO GO TO BED EVERYNIGHT KNOWING I DID THE BEST I COULD THAT DAY TO MAKE MY LIFE A LIL BETTER A LIL EASIER...I GO TO BED THINKING ABOUT THE BAD THINGS I COULDA DONE THIS I SHOULVE DID THINGS THIS WAY.. WHAT DO U DO WHEN ALL U CAN THINK ABOUT IS THE BAD?? I WANT TO B HAPPY. IM SO SAD MOST OF THE TIME DOIN WHAT I GOTTA DO 2 SURVIVE TO DO THE RIGHT THING!!MY KIDS ARE MY LIFE THEY ARE ALL I HAVE!!!I WANT THEM 2 HAVE THE BEST. IM LONELY ILL ADMIT IT.. I WONDER IF ILL EVER FIND SUMONE THAT LOVES ME 4 ME AND NOT GONNA HURT ME.. I WONDER... I HATE BEING ALONE, I HATE NOT HAVING ANY1 TO TALK TO WHEN I NEED TO.