With everything I have lived through, (loosing my 2nd son, fighting to see 1st, divorce and all) it has been very hard for me to wake up every day. I have been trying to find a place to "belong". In my search, I have learned, you may be wanted somewhere, but being wanted isn't what makes one happy. Sure it is nice to know, but if you are being treated badly there in any way, or something, for some reason, you might not be happy still. If you are not happy where you are, even if you are wanted there by another, or others, you need to get out. To stay around, would only be a waste of your time on this earth. So I while I am, "not going to be where I am not wanted", I am also going to, "not going to be anywhere I don't want to be. I have wasted enough of my life living the wrong way in this matter. New changes = new beginings.