To grow up and knowing that youíre never loved,
Knowing you were alone,
Knowing youíre never accepted.
Feeling the whips hitting you
Across your face, arms, legs and back,
Knowing youíre hated day after day.
Nobody becomes your friend
Thinking you are always wrong,
That child always crying for anyonesí help.
That abusive person trying to destroy you
Bit by bit, testing your self-esteem,
Feeling yourself slipping away not caring.
You start tearing yourself down
Letting go, falling deeper and deeper,
Only to find out God wonít let you go.
You wonder why God wants you to live
When you have no spirit to go on,
So into darkness youíll never see light.
I know Iím needed, now someone calls me
I want to help others but I wonder how,
I ask myself will I be able to help them.
I love so many, and helped so few
No one has had the pains as I had or will
No one could ever feel the pain but me.
I tried to fill a void for my life
But so far I have found alot of heartbreak
I ask myself if all of it was my fault.
I searched all over for my special place
I wonder if itís far beyond the universe
Is the love Iím needing there?
Only one knows, until then I will wait
I will be patient, and I will find love,
In this world or another I will belong.