Life is a game; all games have their dangers.
That is why most of us don't allow ourselves the luxury of getting close to anyone; we retreat into ourselves, not putting anyone else in danger.
I was foolish. I actually believed that I could let someone in. Now the person my heart belongs to, is at risk. It was selfish of me to think I could love him; give him my everything, even knowing the threat looming ahead.
If I have to let him go, I will never be whole again. Yet my unrelenting love for him urges me to protect him with my last breath. Even if that means forever banishing him from my life.
The time to do so has not come yet. But I find myself putting up my shields. I know the silence is torturous; a silence that had never existed between us. I pull away from him, withdraw my feelings. For if I didn't, I know it would put more heaviness over him .
No longer will I have a shoulder to cry on; no one to comfort me, to make me laugh . No one to speak honestly to. No one to love.
My heart has already been taken. And I know that no matter what comes to pass, my heart will always be his, and his only.
For I am his, forever and always.
