Charlees Nana's blog: "A really sad time"

Well, another tragedy has affected my life. Tuesday before last I was only one of many whose lives were touched by a terrible, freak accident which took the lives of two good people. It happened on a local secondary road. One of my cousins was driving his pickup truck and hit head on into the path of a high school classmate of mine. It happened on a bridge crossing the river so neither had no where to go. How often would that happen that you would know both parties of such a terrible accident? Both vehicles burst into flames and they both died from the fire, not the impact! He was 17 days thereabouts from graduation and had already landed a job. He was a good ol country boy who loved hunting, trucks, family and music. She was a very nice friend and a wonderful wife and mother. Her husband was following behind her and tried in vain to save her amid her cries for help. My cousin made one last phone call on his cell phone to a family member to tell them of his impending fate. Such a tragic loss to the community. So many of the first responders knew one or both of them. It's just been a real hard time for everyone. Both of them had hundreds of mourners who paid their respects, it was so touching. Each was also eulogized at the other's service. Well, I just wanted an avenue to vent my feelings. Thanks for your interest. Have a Blessed weekend.

Well, it's over. I know I'm gonna be alright but that doesn't make it any easier. You give yourself and dedicate yourself to one person for a year and a half and what do you get? Kicked and stomped and more pain than you can describe! I hope I live long enough for him to get what is coming to him. I have a lot of good friends and I know they are gonna be right there along with my Family to support me and help me heal. The world keeps turning, the sun keeps shining and I will keep on living and hopefully one day I will love again! Wish me luck!

Well, it's another real sad week for me this week. A dear friend of mine that I used to date was lost to the sea. He was a ships' pilot and fell into the bay and the Coast Guard didn't find him. We had dated for a while and he was a really nice man. We just didn't want the same thing, but remained friends. I hadn't heard from him recently. Imagine my shock when I came home from work the other day and turned on the tv and there on the news was the report about what had happened to him. I couldn't believe it! I prayed that maybe it was a mistake somehow or if it was him, that they would find him alive. But realistically I knew that would not be the case. It was during the coldest time of the winter, the water was 39 degrees, six foot seas and 20-25 knot winds. He leaves behind a Daughter, Son and some Grandchildren. Bless his soul and I hope that he's lookin down on me from that great big ship in the sky and smiling that familiar smile and callin me kiddo like he always did. RIP LynnD. I will never forget the fun times and how you were always a gentleman in every sense of the word.

Well, I don't know what else to do that would make me feel at least some better. It's a real sad time for me right now. I have lost someone so important, so special in my life. It was partly expected and partly a shock too. I mean, are you really ever "ready" for something that you don't want to happen? It's really just like a death. One day they are there and the next day they are gone! No more holding each other close at night, no more waking up together in the morning, no more meals together, showers together, laughs, lovemaking.....NOTHING! Well, guess I shouldn't say nothing. He's not far away, basically at my back door, but that makes it all the more hard on me, knowing he's so close, yet so far. I have loved him almost a year and a half. Now, that might not seem like long to some people, but it's what we have been through in that time. And the things we have talked about, done, wanted to do, places we have gone and wanted to go again. And now it won't happen! I guess we were really doomed from the beginning as this was not a popular situation with either one of our families for the most part. Oh, we had maybe one or two on each side that were supportive, but not many. And I ask, who's opinion and feelings mattered most? I felt like it was his and mine that mattered the most! I am just so hurt I don't know what to do! I love him and miss him so much, and don't know how to just cut off the switch. I am SO very thankful for my friends that I have been able to spend time chatting with here on CT, yahoo and of course the phone. At least it was some company and some laughs for a change. I have cried what seems like a river, but had to put on my smiley face like nothing was wrong for my Business. I'm sure I am not the first to go through this nor will I be the last. But even at my age, I am just as confused and hurt as any little high school girl would be after losing her big crush. I have devoted my life to making this man happy and satisfied and now I'm just as lost as a puppy without a home. Well, thanks in advance for your interest in reading about my sad time and I would welcome anything you care to say to me. I pray this pain will get better in time.