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MakeItToxic's blog: "a new chapter"

created on 10/02/2009  |  http://fubar.com/a-new-chapter/b310669

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Heart-Broken-Damn Where To Start On This?Shattered Hearts,And Painful Words.Those Words Can Get To You Tho.Them Break Up Words After A Year Or Soo.And Its Funny How A Guy Finds That One Special Girl And Just Lets Her Get Away Like Nothing Happen But Then Comes Running Back.And Then Tha Guy Keeps Doing Tha Same Routine Over And Over Like It Was A Script To Learn In A Movie.But Tha Real Shit  He Gotta Learn Is He Had A Special Girl But Didn't Treat Her Well.Too Many Chances For Guys And Also Girls.Tha Girl Way Is Very Similar To Tha Guy Way.But At Tha Same Time Tha Guy Is More Funnier To Make Fun Of XD.ADVICE- Don't Give Your Significant Other Too Many Chances!Or You'll Regret It.They'll Move On And You'll Be Stuck Thinking That You Fell In Love To Early.And Well Im Usually Saying Falling In Love Too Early's Bad But Now That Someone Told Me,It's Really That You Can Fall In Love At Any Age.No Matter How Old you Are 12,18,26,77 XD Never Give Up On Love.Never Fall In Love TOO Early.Never Lie To Your significant Other.Never Cheat on Your Significant Other If You Love Them.Never Ever Leave Your Significant Other By Themselves.Always Keep In Touch.Always Call Them If You Cant Make It At Least Try To See Them Let Them Hear Your Voice Or Hit 'Em With A Text.Or Always Myspace.Cause Your Never Too Busy For You Girlfriend Or Boyfriend Unless Its a Family Problem.And Once You Think You Fell In Love Make SURE!Don't Go Too Fast.(I Just Realize Im Off Topic But Oh Wells Ima Keep Talkin Since It's On My Mind.)Also I Think Its Stupid How People Make Promises Cause Promise Are Meant To Be Broken.Just Do You,Keep Yo Head In Tha Game And Everything Will Be As It Was Way Way Back Then.A Few Things To Get Your Mind Off Of It Is:Dance,Sing,Youtube,Talk To Friends,Cry It All Out,Masturbate,Myspace,Webcammin,Shopping,Or Just Close Your Eyes,Clear Your Thoughts.Forget About Tha Past Tha Past Is To Be Forgotten Tha Only Thing That Is Important is Wat You Do And Wat Happens In Tha Future.More Important Shit's Gonna Come In Tha Future Gotta Be Ready For Anything,


a new chapter

I've always had a problem just saying what I think when I know it'll hurt someone I care about. In day to day life I'm completely, 100% brutally honest with everyone and myself. But when it comes to relationships it's harder to just be honest...anyway here are my thoughts.


I think that the truth is a fluid thing, always changing and evolving. Or maybe that's just me lying to myself. I understand that there are some cold, hard facts that are never going to change. They're the truth and will always be the same. When it comes to emotions, feeling and all that other stuff that comes from relationships how can something you say today always be true? Does telling someone you love them today make it less true in a month or a year when you don't love them anymore?

I know I have loved people that I don't love anymore. When I told them I loved them though I meant it with every fiber in my soul but then things change as they inevitably do and I didn't love them anymore. They accuse me of lies and deceit when I never lied …the truth just changed.

Something happened and I don't love them anymore. I might still have a special place in my heart for them but I wouldn't jump in front of a bullet for them anymore. I wouldn't sacrifice my sanity for them again. All of that deep, mind bending love is gone and now I look like a liar and I can't get them to see that I DID love them…just not anymore.

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I think sometimes in my relationships I may have done some of the awful things I have done because I didn't want to have to deal with the "I just don't love you anymore" confrontation. I did things I know would hurt them but nothing hurts as bad as someone saying that they don't love you anymore. I did things that would make me seem like a bad person so they wouldn't feel so terrible when things ended.


People say they want the truth but I don't think it's true when it comes to matters of the heart. Who would want to hear that I stopped loving them around the time they stopped showering? Who would want to hear that I really couldn't stand to be around their stupidity one minute longer? Or that just being near them made me want to shoot myself because they were so gloomy and depressing all the time?

 

I didn't tell any of them that. I didn't tell them I didn't love them anymore either. I went and did things I knew would be deal breakers for them. It ended up with them hating me but I'm okay with that. They blame me and tell themselves everything was good until I did whatever it is that I did. They tell themselves it's my fault for lying or cheating or firing their mom but the truth is I just wanted them gone and I chose what I subconsciously thought would be the least painful for them.


I'm in no way trying to justify my actions. I was wrong for the cheating and the lying and I know that…I just think it was slightly better than telling some of these people the truth which was I don't love THEM anymore. Something about them changed and the thought of being with them for a moment longer made me sick.


So what do you think? Is honesty always the best policy? Should you tell someone that you just don't love them anymore or should you let them think you are horrible so that they feel better about themselves? Which do you think is crueler?

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