XaviRoseMaiden's blog: "poetry"

it all started with Hi Dad how are you .

it was easy and light , but as we talked  decided to put my webcam on .

i knew my Dad had not seen me for a long long time ,

i share with him , some current news and i let my lil one come close ,

we talked to him , about how she was reading novels and how amazing it was for seven, and then she showed him her special drawings , and my Dad he started to cry . i could see him but he told me . he's still waiting to get a webcam .

you see its been four years since i saw him last in person or hes seen his first grandchild .

when he  started to cry , so did i. the tears they slid silently down my face , as i watched my lilone and herpa catch up .

My poor Daddy misses me so . he calls me his darling princess..

i left home at the age of 19 , and we've have barely seen each other since .

My heart aches to go home to visit , but it knows it would long to stay ..

i've lived in two different worlds so long .

and i'm always torn apart ... whens its time to leave

my home land , my family and my friends ..

i always cry on the way to the airport , and cry again as i wave good bye . i think of how long it will be till i next will see them again ..

and sometimes i really don't know ..

many people asks me this , when i meet them for the first time .. i try back for sheding tears cause once they start its hard to know when they'll stop .

my hazel eyes get greener , and they hurt when i'm done ..

but then my heart is heavy ..and my sad thoughts keep me awake , i toss and turn and in my dreams .. i dream of home ..

i dream of being there  with them all ..

sometimes i wake , and hold my pillow tight just like i would if i was hugging them .. the tears start all over again , and they soak my pillow as i hold it tight ..

i cry myself to sleep .. and hope the dreams will return as sometimes its all i have left ...my memories are so vague of the times we spent together ..

but i know i love them all his all my heart and i will love them forever .