As I sit here writing once again. It seems as if that's all I do anymore. I sit and type my heart out into my blogs giving it all of me, turning it into anthromorphizations. My personality becomes one within my writing. I guess the reason I feel the reason I write so much, is because if I don't people conjure up their own aberrations of me. It's hurtful. I can't believe how far people will go sometimes just to bring another person down, to justify themselves in some higher power over something. So instead of sitting here vociferating inside, I bleed my heart into what I write, let the truth be told. To put it bluntly some people can be vindictive assholes, and I am getting pretty tired of it. Since I have met certain people on here, it has been drama after drama. It's unbelievable! I guess the people on here that cause the drama have nothing better to do with their lives mainly the females, so they come on here and feel infringing the right of others, and making arbitrary assumptions will somehow make them superior. Just like this whole ordeal with everything that's going on in my life one person says something to another and it's like a huge shout out to that person, but when I try and rectify my behalf of the situation to the person being told these things all they hear of my side is susurrant nothings. How can I trust and put feeling towards someone when it's hard to trust in the first place. Just like that email that was sent to someone... If this chick knew me, I mean really knew me inside, they could rationalize the concept of the things being said, and know I am not like that. I don't need to conjurate up stories. I have zero tolerance for that sort of thing, and the thing that pisses me off is my name shouldn't even be spoken out of these peoples mouths that are saying these things! They don't know me! Thankfully when things like this do happen I can fall back on my lyrics, and let things out as they come. Some people just don't seem to understand me. I suppose it's because I am rather existential, pragmatic, and transcendent all combined into one. I guess some could misperceive what I ramble about. On here it is hard to tell what ones words mean, when they have different meaning in the meaning themselves. Online they are only words upon a screen before the viewers eyes, they have no characterization. So who is to tell the meaning or personality behind them. One can only interpret what one assumes it to be. I guess that is why I take so much pride in my lyrics, and writing. When I am finished, it's one big extrusion everything is let out, and I am left feeling satisfied. Right now I am feeling much more calm, and at peace with myself, and things as they are now. I guess I am done rambling for now, I am exhausted, and wore out. My eyes hurt, my body aches, and I need rest for now. I am sure I will write more later.
