Iceman's blog: "A Little Humor"

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell her things that you’ve never shared with another soul and she absorbs everything you say and actually wants to hear more. You share hopes for the future together with her and some of the goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell her about it, knowing she will share in your excitement. She is not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Seldom does she hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather she builds you up and shows you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful in her eyes. There is never any pressure or competition but only a quiet calmness when she is around. You can be yourself and not worry about what she will think of you because she loves you for who you are and sears she will love you “Forever and always no matter what”. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colors seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In her presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having her nearby or in your arms. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this woman who is so special to you and the love you have been searching for your whole life. You think of her on every occasion and in everything you do; she is always on your mind. Simple things bring her to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and finally worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that she is part of your life and will be for the rest of your life. Then suddenly one day without warning she is gone and your life is over. You do everything within your power to try to salvage this relationship to no avail and the most important person in your life who promised never to leave you and to love you forever and always no matter what is gone forever and your life is an empty shell with no hope of ever being worthwhile ever again. You can’t eat, you can’t sleep, you cry every day constantly trying to figure out why and how to win her back but nothing you do works. You can’t get her out of your mind and can’t stop loving her no matter what you try. Months go by and nothing changes. The tears still flow, the deep love for her remains and there is nothing to do but resign yourself to an empty worthless life forever knowing that you will never love another and will wait for her return forever.