Some things are so hard to accomplish.
So hard to have to tell yourself to man up.
To trust those feelings you get, telling you dont do it.
Masking yourself to look as stable as possible.
To look like you dont give one bother to the world for what they did.
Not to let others down because of your selfishness.
Putting a smile on to hide your frown.
Looking that person straight in the eye, and not letting your guard down to give them the satisfaction.
Believing that your going to move on.
Remember those good memories.
And those bad memories.
Forgiving but never forgetting.
You thought you could never go on.
And you did, with ease, and no mercy.
Those sleepless nights, days of wondering, never knowing what was going to be thrown at you next.
Taking what you hear, see, and experience.
And looking at it as a lesson you learned.
And that you will teach in the future.
Finally you got your request.
To feel the best you ever have in your life.
Because you proved to yourself that you can get through anything even with someone you love very much and they and others dont even know it.
You...yourself gave you to satisfaction of seeing that one person..feel ashamed and in loss of someone who they in the future will realize that they broke that one promise that could have made a difference.
February 22, 2007
