Okay, dear friends, those who have read my introduction and my previous posts already know that I am a heart patient. I was born with my main heart condition. I only bring this up now beecause my life is always going to be a life of surgeries on and off both major and minor ones. In the introduction to myself I mentioned my pacemaker and my inability to use my wifi settings on my DS. Well, the time is finally upon me, yep. It is time to change the device. I have a surgery date already. August 4th. Normally I take these more minor of operations (compared to what I have had and what lies ahead) with grace and little worries but in light of the wickedly crappy year this has been I am kinda freaking out a bit. To top it off no one else, no other doc other than Dr. Spotnitz from CP in NY has EVER handlede my pacemakers. My ICD, well, others have replaced those but the pacemaker is something else altogether. No pacer equals no life. I live only because of that small device and that odd, brillant man tweaked every pacemaker I ever had so when the nation was filled with recalls I was never one of them. Why mention all this? I need to invoke the warrior inside me, so starting tonight I will create yet another blog area called The Warrior's Voice (a title Liz told me I should name a book if I ever wrote about my life and living with heart failure). In it will be poems both new and old that i use to help me call upon that inner strenghth when I need it most. I hope you all enjoy that side of me, my warriors side is also my egotistical side lol, but it has to be. Thank you, take care for I haop all is well with you all.
Heaven.
