I feel I've spent my life looking for a woman that will be able to surprise me day after day. Most women are fairly predictable. The more they try to hide their feelings, or their lack of, the easier it is to see right through them. I have found one, and only one, that is truly unpredictable. Unfortunately, that has also been a problem. I'm never sure what she is thinking or even how she feels about me. There are times when I think we share the same feelings for each other, then there are times when I feel like she doesn't want anything to do with me. I often find myself staring at her, just wondering what she is thinking. I've tried asking her, but her response is always the same, "nothing." I wish she would share more of herself with me, but I'm sure she wishes the same from me. It is, however, refreshing to have found someone that has yet to become boring to me. After nearly five months, I still enjoy every second of her company. She is as mesmerizing as moonlight on the water. She is as radiant as the first rays of light during a morning sunrise. Every moment with her brings joy and peace to my life. Ironic, as much of a conundrum as she is to me, her presence brings me comfort. For once in my life, I've found the one that brings me true happiness and for once in my life, I have no idea where our lives are going. For the first time I am unable to anticipate tomorrow. Every day with her in my life may be the last. She has become a beacon, guiding me through life and without her I would be lost. There is no other on this Earth that I would rather grow old with. It seems all we possess is friendship, yet I desire so much more. It drives me crazy not knowing what she desires for us. Is she satisfied with just being friends, or does she desire more as I do? Does she see a future with me as I see with her? I have no way of knowing what the future holds, for now I can only revel in every moment I have with her. She is so close to me, yet so far away. JFC
