Before I moved here to Reno, I went online to search and see if I could possibly find someone to hang out with and be friends with before I made the big step to move here. Well I went on Myspace and browsed the ppl that lived here. Well I'm bi (if people don't already know by now lol) so I was also looking for a possible girlfriend as well. But was mostly looking for a friend. Anyway I found this girl's page and read about her and pretty much checked out the entire thing before deciding she sounded really kewl y'know? So I added her and sent her a message saying that I was moving here soon and would be needing someone to hang out with and to chat with. Well I had gotten a message back which was nice because half the time when I did that I didn't get any response. So yeah I was happy. So we started to chat more, and I came to really enjoy chatting with her. I found out we had a whole load of stuff in common. I was more and more into her as we chatted back and forth on Yahoo. Its been a reeeeally long time since I had a close friend that also happened to be a girl. I grew up with guys mostly but there was only one girl that I had been bestfriends with and unfortunately she was taken away much too early in life. After that I never thought I'd ever find a girl I could get along with like I did with her. But then I met Kiri. Her spirit is just.. whats the word... guess I want to say Awesome? But then I don't think its worthy enough. Eh, anyway she just totally cheered me up when I was depressed and just all around made my day/night when I talked to her. We shared the same interests in Anime, music, games, artwork etc. I don't think even my childhood bestfriend had as much in common as Kiri-chan and I. I think Kiri's the most beautiful girl I've ever met. I mean she's a 10 on a scale of 1 to 10 but with her personality and heart and just her being herself. She's easily a 50. I think the world of this girl. Last Tuesday we were suppose to finally meet up and hang out that night so I spent the entire day shaving meh legs and grooming, y'know what ya do for a big date your excited about. Anyway I ended up spending 5 hours on picking out the right outfit (which turned out I should've worn jeans instead of a skirt out in the cold), making sure my makeup was perfect and everything else. We were going to meet at the Library so I showed up early like I usually do. Well she said 6pm 7pm at the latest so I hung out till 7 when the library closed. So she didn't show up and I was upset thinking that she stood me up and that I was foolish to think that someone would ever want to meet me and at least be my friend. So in my deep depression and feeling rejected I went down to the bar we were suppose to go play pool at and got some sympathy drinks and shot some pool before walking home in a short skit and thin hoody with wind-burn on my legs. So I felt horrible and hurt, and then the next day I went online to check my mail and bank account and then jumped on myspace and my fubar page to check messages there as well and had gotten a message from someone on Kiri's account. Tai, her friend had left me a message saying that she was in a severe car accident the night we were suppose to hang out. She was driving back home from Fernly, NV to get ready for our date that night and some fuckin dick was racing his friend on the interstate and he flew through a stopsign and slammed into her car, t-boning her doing 65mph. Kiri was laid up in the hospital for almost a week, she had a broken leg, 4 broken ribs, and a severe concussion that the doctors were worried about so they kept her in the hospital. Anyway, so I was out and about and went to Circus Circus thursday and ended up meeting up with Tai, he's a kewl guy. And we chatted and hung out, talking about how well kiri-chan was pulling through and getting better and how we met her and what not. So lately I've had Kiri-chan on the brain lol. I can't stop worrying about her, can't stop thinking about her. I wish she would not worry about being banged up and bruised. Tai told me she feels worthless and not wanted here. Its not true. We really care about her. She doesn't see she has people here in Reno who love her. I wish she would talk to me. It hurts not being able to talk to her directly.
