okay, so you proved me wrong. well, at least you have when you finish reading it.
Almost always, the best stuff comes to me when i least want it or expect it to. Even more so when im just depressed. the words just flow right in my head and come out here. I wonder why that is. I can't just be naturally an intellectual, it has to come to me. and like i said, it does not come often.most are luckier, but if it comes often, i guess its not meaningful after all. those that are, dont necessarily brag about it either. Take emily dickinson, for example, the last thing she wanted was to be hailed and famous, but after she was dead, her family and friends took her work and publicized it. it was brilliant....but she did not want anyone to know. I wonder if all that stuff just "came" to her too. or if she was one of those ones who could pull it out of the air like it was nothing. maybe this is another one of those "posts" and i just dont realize it. Could be. but if it is, it isnt one i thought over like any other. im not even thinking of what to type, its just coming out, like im thinking the exact same thing as im typing the moment im typing it. thats never happened before. wow. this must contradict everything i said above. XD i guess it can come out of thin air if i try hard enough. i didnt know i could do that but i...i just did. that must be what it feels like. but then again, its no crowning achievement.i type too much. oh well. im done. happy new year people!
