Early this morning, I was going through our wedding and honeymoon photos. I thought to myself, I really haven't change too much. Other than my hair dye and eye piercing. Still the same fucking dull looking person.
Before I went to bed, I looked at myself in the mirror and though, how can people fuckin' look at me? It's just so fucking disqusting. Omg, I just want to fuckin' hit myself. The last couple days I've been watching what I ate and excersized...well maybe not really excersized at home, it was at work.
For the whole 12 hour shift, I was going back and forth in the building, pushing hundreds lbs of crap. Pulling and pushing crap weighing 500-800lbs with pallet jacks. Ugh..what the hell am I doing wrong?
Today, we plan on eatting at To Dai which is a japanese seafood buffet. Real spendy resturant but suppose to be real good. It'll be the first time going there. I'll have to watch what I eat there.
Sigh...why do I have to be so fuckin' ugly...
