yeah its 6 am here....feeling rather...odd and kind of pathetic. yeah yeah like you care; but wtf why not find some place on the web to describe my idiotic feelings? *smiles w/ no mirth* I could go on and on but.......mostly i feel this because i have no control in my life. Or right now thats how i feel....having been up xx hours so far.(can;t recall exact number too tired) and need sleep. but thats not why i'm writing is it? No; just want some real friends. those that won't turn their backs on me, those that i can actually see and hang with. Hopefully by me coming on here i'll make some local friends. feeling pathetic because i have hardly any friends i can relate too that will in turn trust me. Trust and loyalty are big things with me. i'm willing to give it, if i will recieve it in turn.....
