I can't make up my mind quite yet on where my logic lies. I will discuss and discuss and find my opinion is neither my own nor the other person I debate with. I have no true opinions anymore since everything seems to be a constantly blurring line to my vision. Maybe this is just seeing the vibrations that shake everything at every moment. I spend a lot of time in meditation lately.. I just don't know yet which path I want to go down. I think often on what my ego really is and what I plan to do with it. Zen Mind, Beginner's Mind by Shinryu Suzuki is quite a difficult book to maintain the ideas on. I understand but can't quite grasp the method. It seems the practice is something I'm not capable of without seeing a benefit or goal. I just need a few more years. Im still trying to figure out people. And they're still trying to figure out me. I'll always love them though. Its like the best mystery book ever written is the human race. You think you figure out one thing and then a whole new level opens up and you don't have a clue. And if you keep from getting overly pessimistic and closing your mind off to those new levels, you get to see aspects of human nature that are really beautiful and make things seem so much brighter on a day to day basis. Including the ones that are in yourself. But I'm rambling. This is how my head works so now you really know more about me without having to know all the repetitive details of my superficial life.