Hello. This is what my life is about. Please read and if you have any questions please ask me. Thanks. Sometimes its hard to tell people your feelings cause you don’t know if they understand on what you say to them. And its hard to let your feelings out sometimes. When you asked your family a question do you ever think if they are lying to you? Its hard to have a family that you cant even see cause they moved on with their lives. Some times you really cant tell if your family is lying to you but you can feel it sometimes in your heart. I knew at first my family was hiding things and lying to me for tons of stuff. Like what happen to me and my father. But its really hard to describe that because my family tells me one thing and tells me another thing I am trying to figure out what is the truth what happen to me when I was little? I have questions and I am trying to find answers. How can you know you found out the answers that you are asking? How can you feel it that’s the truth? Will they ever talk to you again? Will they ever tell you what really happen? Um I don’t know but sometimes I feel like my family lies to me all of my life and is hiding important information that will answers my questions. I am trying to figure out the answers but sometimes its hard when you have a family that cant see you or when you call them they pick up but don’t really say anything. Are they really listing to what we have to say to them? Do they know how we feel about them? Some of these questions I cant answer to my self. Its so strange cause some people says to don’t stop looking for answers to your questions. But my question is will we ever find our answers to our questions? How would we know that’s the real answers to our questions. See sometimes we all have questions to have answers but do or did you find your answers? Are you sure they are true answers? I have a lot of questions about my life cause I don’t know what is the answers to my questions. I sometimes feel like my hole life was all my fault. My family sometimes say it is. But every time when its Christmas I wanted to have my family to get along and just to be together but it doesn’t work like that. No one can change any one at all they can only change there own life. But don’t we sometimes wish that we can change them to be a better family. My mom and dad was divorce for 14 years now. I always think that when you’re a family you are supposed to be with each other. When your getting married don’t the pastor says life till death? But sometimes when you really love some one deep down your heart it sometimes goes bad through your life. Sometimes married couple blames themselves but I always but it as if you love that person you will always love them no matter what you do or what they do. This is really what’s going on with my life so many questions so many answers. Umm I don’t know where to start. Its like your brain wash. It felt like I was brain washed with my family but they were trying to protect me from everything and they were trying to teach me what life its all about. No one has discovers what life is all about even me I haven’t discover it either. But wouldn’t it be so nice to know what the meaning of life is? Sometimes when I was mad at some one I would always take a walk and I see happy family being there with each other and that’s what life is all about well I think. I think that life is all about being there for you love ones and caring for your love ones, but some times I ask my self do I feel like I am loved or cared from my family or friends. Or are they just using us. Its strange when they always say that family’s supposed to be with each other. But sometimes they are not with each other. Sometimes some family don’t care for each other. Its so sad cause every moment of the day you would always ask your self am I loved or am I cared? And sometimes you cant tell or cant see it. Well that’s what I am going through its tough yes very tough and sometimes I don’t understand if why we cant just get along with the family and not have fighting wouldn’t it be great if we would all be truthful to one each other? Would it be awesome if we can find answers to our questions?