I have a “dark” profile. Oooh, scary. Does that make me a “dark” person? Eh, maybe. I'm a happy person, though. Can “dark” people be happy? Does that make me not a “dark” person? Who knows.
I listen to some pop, shop at department stores, and enjoy looking as if I have just come out of a job interview. Sometimes I’ll even wear pink, watch VH1, and have “girl time” with my mom. I like my mom. She’s one of the coolest people I know. Does this make me a “prep?” I have no idea.
Sometimes, I shop at Hot Topic, Torrid, and Spencer’s Gifts for clothing and accessories. I’ll even listen to nu-metal (gasp!). I’ve been on antidepressants and have thought about killing myself. Life can suck, sometimes. Maybe I’m a poseur. Or a poser. Which is just a double-poseur, because they don’t even spell it “right.”
I know more than a handful of obscure bands. If I have free time and some money (and need clothes or such), I’ll check out the thrift stores, clearance racks, major sales, etc. I may keep most of my music on my computer, but I love owning actual albums. Local and independent musicians rock my world, no matter where “local” may be. Just because they’re not from my home town doesn’t mean I can’t like them too. I don’t have enough indie cred to be a hipster, though.
I have an obscure, anarcho-communist perspective when it comes to politics. I enjoy music with an anti-consumerist and anti-government bent to the lyrics. I can be seen wearing plaid, spikes, studs, collars, and once had blue hair. If I am a punk, I’m a quiet one.
The occult tickles my fancy, as do Shakespeare, surrealist art, literature, and films, shying away from the mainstream, dark clothing, “theatre” make-up, bold/abstract/industrial aspects in decor, mythologies, philosophy, and beauty in imperfection. I will wear a full, black trench coat in the summer and sleep during the day as much as possible. Corsetry, as well as Victorian and Edwardian clothing, appeal to me, as well as cybernetic and industrial inspired clothing. Do you think this fits at all with everything else? In a way, I do.
There is no way to stick a label on a person and capture their entire essence. People are just people. They have likes, dislikes, interests, needs, and wants. Good things happen and bad things happen. They succeed and they make mistakes, sometimes at the same time. Because the human mind attempts to link the new to the known, categories are formed and sometimes people are misappropriated. There is no way to be a person without a prejudice. The only thing one can do is accept that first impressions can be wrong and to get to know some of the people you’re afraid of or dislike the most. On different days, I can appear to be different people. When push comes to shove, I’m just Elysha.
