Mistress Deb's blog: "4 cops gone in line of duty"

Experiences can be eye opening.......

What attracts men to me?  Why do they think they can attach themselves emtionally and sometimes physically and think it is ok to enter ones heart. Once the heart believes the person is being real... They enjoy the company and still want the attention from the heart that they widdle their way into... Yet, go to another who looks just like me and give them everything that my heart has mended and healed. While I'm left aside like trash but, still asked to be there when needed to be built up and stroked. Men ....  I know ...i hear all men are not this way... but the men that I seem to attract near, far or what ever... They are all the same and tend to have the   same behavior and traits. This started with the marriage to the current moment and date. From the moment I meet you I ask u to respect me, be honest and be who you are. "MOST OF ALL DON'T LIE" For truth always come out....If you are a in the process of being in a rebound I am not the women you need to lean on while rebuilding your life and discovering yourself. I have a heart that has  big walls built around it from the actions and behaviors of those whom I let enter my  life. It  doesnt matter what background or social lifestyle, race, culture they have all turned out to be the same. I have heard the word "sorry" or "you didn't do anything" so many times that those words have no value. They are just words. Actions speak louder than words. Please do not ask me for my phone number or attempt to get to know me personally. We already both know how it will end....  

It was brought to my attention this afternoon that today they put to rest four cops that were killed in the line of duty in Oakland. These families have lost a son, grandson, brother, husband, uncle,and a friend. Here in our own land we are fighting this war among ourselves. These are men that lived on the edge everyday at work and at play. Relationships change in a blink of any eye. Be it a friend, foe, or lover. We are in a war among ourselves and those we have around us. One never knows but, we can't have fear for it is not an option - of this war. It is a sad day today - for when the day it was destroyed for these families. We all woke up that morning. To the unknown of the day that laid before us. Which in turned became today. Just a thought of reflection to whom we have lost... while living on the edge of life.