HeavenIsTheMomentInLifeWhenYouActuallyFe...'s blog: "3~Let me feel"

I'll never be able to tell you how much you mean to me how much joy you bring to my sorrow filled nights or even how many giggles that pass though my lips I'll never be able to tell you how many bugs crawl in my stomach when I hear your words how high my stomach jumps when I see your face or even what comes to mind when I hear your name I'll never be able to tell you how much I shiver when you say you care or even how much of your pain I want to take from you I'll never be able to tell you I want to see you happy I want you to go be with with her Just so you'll be happy Though I know it's not good for you I'll never be able to tell you The thoughts I've had The notions I've composed The words that come to mind What I want to give to you I'll never be able to tell you Of all the things that I've learned from you Of all the Happiness I've got from you The joy I didn't want I'll never be able to tell you About the effect you have over me The way you say things The way you talk The way your mind thinks It pulls me in You're so handsome I can't take my eyes off of you I'll never be able to tell you All of these things above Though I'm sure I've said a couple I'm sure you don't know to what extent I'll Never Tell You What I'm thinking now How I feel now Or how I feel when I'm in your presence.. There is no way that I can Words get caught enough as it is... You don't need to know what ever it is... All you'll ever need to know Is that I'd give all of myself to make sure you're happy I'll listen to everything and not say a word Give you my ear, my sholder and not take any of you away with it... I'll never try to push my way in I'll never try to be someone I'm not to please you I'll never lie to you I'll never be what you want All I am is me These are the things I'll never be able to say...

Look at me Tell me what you see I see secrets and lies that have become me Used for person I was Everything taken from me My family, my home, my life and my soul She took it all away from me Look at me Tell me what you see I don't see all the good things that you might say to me I've been told I've been shown I'm not good for any of those I once believed but now I don't How could I now or ever Torn body from mind I can't completely feel My body feels pain my mind feels nothing I think of love, of pleasure, of companionship But my body feels nothing of this My soul has turned a shade darker

Live Feel Breathe Me blood will soon be gone I feel now Like I never have Peaceful No burdens Quiet See the face of Love I Watch him as he watches me die I Know he's here to see Come be apart of me Drink me in Devour my life Take it into you Let me give you my essence Let me give you my life Then maybe yours will be better Drink me in Make me apart of you Show me your soul Let me be one with you Watch my blood pour out for you I died for you Everyday for you Take me in your arms Drink my life away A gift for you Do as you please Take my collapsed body Pull me into you Slit my writs even more Place your lips to my skin Drain me dry Drink my warm blood It's full of love Take in it Let me flow into you Live Feel life Feel love

67~Let me Feel Category: Life Look at me I'm tattered and torn Don't want you to touch Don't want you to say Anything that will make this okay Watch me struggle Watch me squirm Watch me as I break each piece of me in turn It hurts as they tear my flesh, my heart it bleeds Blood dripping As I cut if off my skin It's comfort, the warmth of it It covers my body I feel again I now know I'm alive I've been dying here, alone, not by your side Let me be warm Let me feel again I could never leave you behind as you did I You've already gone I just want you to watch As I start to feel I died everyday you were gone Bled on the inside Just watch me bleed out Feel myself again I bleed for you My legs quake as they give way I'm tired Tired of trying Tired of this fleeting feeling Cuase right now, I'm the only one I've been left behind Watch my broken body As it tires to function Turning into the corpse that I already have become Let me bleed out Watch my blood spill Watch me live again