As I sit here at 2am in the morning on Monday morning, all i can think about is my husband and how i miss him. wishing that he was home with me so we can be a compleat family again i mean dont get me wrong were a family no matter where he is but, its just hard with out him here my daughter acts out knowing that daddy isnt here to reinforce me. my son just got to know his daddy, and then he is gone again poor baby. im not trying to selfesh, i know that he is doing his job but hasnt this gone on long enough? was the extention really called for? do they really care about the soldiers and there families? i mean this is just me thinking but i wonder do others wonder the same questions as i do? my husband left on the 23rd or this month from his r and r, yes he got a couple extra days to be here so when i had my surgery he could be here and i thank the cpt. for approving before he took that higher up, and when he left it didnt bother me to this day i think it was because i was still on my pain med's so i felt nothing no pain and no emotion, but now that im not on no pain med's and im sitting here cant sleep with nothing to do but think about him that is when i really start crying and hurting hating that we chose this life sometimes. dont get me wrong i love my soldier and all the other soldiers out there putting there life on the line just wish this iraq shit would stop already. im sure there are other families out there that were glad to serve our country but now there questioning if they should stay in... maybe that is just my thinking... i know that my husband when he first joined he didnt know if he was going to stay in or not.. but with all this iraq crap he has thought about getting out, but he has realized no matter what he loves being a soldier and i honestly dont see him getting out, and i dont wish for him to get out either i just wish that i could of seen him more. and to be honest i think that if i was around family it would make this go by faster then what it is going now. but im in texas and my family is in washington, yes i go visit as much as i can but some times that is not enough i am just a person that likes to be around other people to make the day go by faster and when im alone the day draggs and all i do is think negative thoughts. so ya im just rambling on trying to pass time away. so there ya have it my two am thoughts....
