To be or not to be, that is the question. Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune, or to take arms against a sea of troubles and by opposing, damn them to the hellish pit of Peoria. 'Tis a consumation devoutly to be wished to die. To sleep, perchance to dream, aye that's it. For in that sleep of death what dreams may come when we have shuffled off this mortal coil, must make us hesitate. Do not go gently into that dark night. Allow the candle of your life to burn hotter and brighter than all others. Prove that you have what it takes to live.

And you don't seem to understand. How can I hold on, when there's nothing to hold on to? And why should I hold on, when there's nothing to hold on to? You're moving on we'll never be apart just drain my tears, I cry aloud. You're moving on, you'll never be a part of all my tears, I cry aloud. (She isn't real, I can't make her real.) Why don't you cure my tragedy? I wish that I could stay, I wish that I could be your evil in a closet. This day could be the worst one yet. Have you ever felt lost inside? So unloved within that you almost died? You're the hand that spins my revolver around when you push me away. Sehnsucht ist so grausam. Du riechst so gut... Do you wonder what it's like to live in a permanent imagination? Sleeping to escape reality. Caught under wheels, roll. I take the leash I'm bleeding me. Can't stop to save my soul, I take the leash that's leading me. I'm tired of being what you want me to be, feeling so faithless, lost under the surface. Every step that I take is another mistake to you. You only think about yourself. You better bend before I go... on the first train to Mexico... I need serenity, and a place that I can hide. I will dedicate and sacrifice everything for just a second's worth before my story's ending. I feel the hate in me awakening. It ain't happenin, I'm feelin glad, I got sunshine in a bag. I'm useless, but not for long. Leave life bleeding in my hands. Silently within, hands touching skin, shock breaks my disease and I can breathe. All of your weight all you dream falls on me. Inside, we all know, only the strong survive. But it's as if you seem to make a small effort, but you're bending my mind. When we collapse, for our weakened hands, die, fall together at once abandoned. I tried to kill the pain, but only broguht more. I lay down and I'm pouring crimson regret. I'm dying praying bleeding and screaming. Am I too lost to be saved? I came to you with best intentions. You drive me to distraction. Can you hear me? Can you see any part of me? Can you feel me? Can you bleed for me? Branch out from behind the pain. I don't have a past, I just have a chance. Rain rain go away, come again another day. All the world is waiting for the sun... Show me how to live... I'm giving into you... One day I'll walk away and say, you F*CKING disapoint me.

Equilibrium, Lord of the Rings: the Ultimate Movie Trilogy, Boondock Saints, The Last Samurai, Memoirs of a Geisha, Nochnoi Dozor, Le Pacte Des Loupes, Dogma, Godzilla, Office Space, The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe, The Usual Suspects, Pulp Fiction, Sin City, Pitch Black, Romeo and Juliette, Snatch, The Lady in the Water, Sixth Sense, Signs, The Replacement Killers, Rozencrantz and Guildenstern are Dead, Scotland PA, Gladiator, Hellboy, Kill Bill, Leon the Proffessional, assorted others...

I have no idols. I am my role model. I am my measuring stick. I am the standard I set myself to, the ladder I compare myself against. Damn the man. You can only be the you that you are. Waste no time desiring, wanting, dreaming of being another person. It will take away from the time you have to be yourself. Enjoy that. Above all. Be you.