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Female · fu-Owned by MINDGRAVY and is worth 100,000,000 fubucks. · Joined on October 2, 2006 · Relationship status: In a relationship · 4 referrals joined! · I have a crush on someone and 26 different people have a crush on me!
Female · fu-Owned by MINDGRAVY and is worth 100,000,000 fubucks. · Joined on October 2, 2006 · Relationship status: In a relationship · 4 referrals joined! · I have a crush on someone and 26 different people have a crush on me!

I never know what to say on these things. I am just me take it or leave it.

I can and often am a smartass. I can be funny and creative when the mood strikes me. I am always very open minded. I love to chat and debate and I am always looking for intelligent conversation which apparently is extremely hard to find.

I have a high stress but rewarding job. DON"T get all bitchy just because I don't get back to you right away! I am very involved in many social issues and keep up on current events. I have a very serious and deep side, but I also have a playful side. Which one will you inspire in me...if anything at all.

I am a attached female who is very much into reading, writing short stories, poetry and lyrics, music, movies, chatting, Erotica, and BDSM. So don't be shy drop me a line.

So here is some of my writings, some are poems, some are lyrics. Feel free to browse most of them are fairly old but let me know what you think.

Darkness

Outside the cold wind blows through the trees
But not as icy as my thoughts flow through my soul,
outside the light of the moon still shines,
but in here, the deepest parts of myself
only darkness,

Once my eyes held light & life
But now they behold only darkness & death
Once they flickered like the flame of a candle,
Now they stare blankly seeing
only darkness

Once I feared the shadows of exsistance
Once I sought out the light for safety
Once I cradled myself in the suns beautiful rays
Now I search out the shadows, enveloping myself in
only darkness

Waiting to be Found

I fell into the shadows
I got lost within the pain
Straying from the light
(And waiting to be saved)

I wait and hide
Trying to decide
Find me
Love me
Leave me
Waiting to be found

Alone in the darkness
Reaching towards the light
Concealed by the shadows
(And waiting to be saved)

I wait and hide
Trying to decide
Find me
Love me
Leave me
Waiting to be found

With an empty stare I wait
Fear locks me in this place
I am left within my thoughts
(And waiting to be saved)

I wait and hide
Trying to decide
Find me
Love me
Leave me
Waiting to be found

Moonlight through the window
Passing through my veil of tears
Illuminate my tattered soul
(Still waiting to be saved)

I wait and hide
Trying to decide
Find me
Love me
Leave me
Waiting to be found

Still waiting to be found….

Scars on the Inside

You don't witness my pain
But it doesn't mean its not there
You think you see me so clearly
But I stand in the dark mists of my pain

I took the chance on you
Thought you might be the one
Maybe you could see past it all
Shattered soul and twisted fears
Scars on the inside

I took the chance on you
Thought you might be the one
I would have given it all to you
And asked for nothing in return

You will never see me cry
I could slowly fade away
And you would never comprehend what you once held
Shattered soul and twisted fears
Scars on the inside

But you are like all the rest
I could just fade away
And you would never know what you once had
Your perception of me is so screwed up

Just because you don't see the scars
Just because you don't see me bleed
Doesn't mean a thing
You will never see the real me
Never see me cry

Shattered soul and twisted fears
Scars on the inside...

Reflection

The dark clouds burst above
Sheets of rain like needles
I sense you here with me
And it makes me tremble

And the rain comes pouring down,
Its resurrection
A reflection of what used to be
And I’m just a reflection

Damp ground beneath my feet
I feel your intense stare
I close my eyes, sinking down
And I am consumed by you there

And the rain comes pouring down,
Its resurrection
A reflection of what used to be
And I’m just a reflection

And the rain comes pouring down
Its all deception
A reflection of what used to be
Just a reflection of me

Thunder crash and lightening flash
Rain and tears upon my face
Wash it all away
Wash you away

And the rain comes pouring down
Its all perception
A reflection of what used to be
Just a reflection of me

Rising spirit, ascend the storm
My eyes unobstructed now
You’re not there
Just a reflection of you

And the rain comes pouring down
It’s my salvation
Just a reflection of what used to be
The salvation of me

Female · fu-Owned by MINDGRAVY and is worth 100,000,000 fubucks. · Joined on October 2, 2006 · Relationship status: In a relationship · 4 referrals joined! · I have a crush on someone and 26 different people have a crush on me!
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Sex Pistols, Circle Jerks, Black Flag, the Uprising,the Decendants, The Toy Dolls, Recoil, NIN, The Misfits, Danzig, Samhain, Suicidal Tendancies, Jack off Jill, Genitorturers, GodSmack, Disturbed, Hatebreed, Coal Chamber, SoulFly, oh hell too many to mention....

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