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I am a Mother, Grandmother, Sister and a wife. Let me tell you about this poem. I have 3 boys and 2 girls which one of my boys took his life on May 10th 2003....5 days before his 23 birthday and the weekend of Mothers Day. I am still having a very hard time with his untimely death. I can't even begin to tell you how it feels. It is like someone has stabbed you in the heart and cut a piece of it out and it physically hurt so bad you just want the pain to go away, but you can't stop it! He did leave me with my oldest grandchild, her name is Hannah and she remembers her Daddy all the time, she dreams about him and she tells me he comes to her in her dreams and tells her to be good for Mommy. I don't think she is lying one bit!
Fall and Christmas was his favorite time of the year, so I and missing him a bit more these days. He was always the first one to want to put up the Christmas decorations with me so that is something we did together. For the longest time I didn't do anything for Christmas, not even a tree till last year.
I'm getting there slowly but surely.....I know I will never forget it so I just try to get through it the best I know how.




A Mother
I am a mother, a mother of five.
Till one day my son took his life
away and made me a mother of four
A mother of four, I just can't take anymore
I sit and cry day by day I do not like being a
mother of four. I just wish to be that mother of five
just so I can still feel alive,
but no matter how hard I try
I will never be that mother of five.


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"The world is a dangerous place,
not because of those who do evil,
but because of those who look on and do nothing.
" Albert Einstein