Robbie DPR's blog: "2 mil give away"

As I say what I need to say I know I am hurting you. And for this I have no excuse, but it needs to be said. There is a love I have in my heart that can not be defined, not sure if you care or not but it is there. As I spend my time alone, I feel your absents, and there is a void I can not fill. Not with anything. I have tried, lord knows I have tried. I try to talk to you and I do not think you hear what I have to say. So here it goes. You and I met and became infatuated with one another, and it turned into a crush, that turned into a fling, that turned into a passionate love affair, but as I see it, that is all it is. Now there is a gap between us that cannot be filled. You need your freedom, and in receiving this freedom that you needed, you have lost me, and what hurts more, is I lost you. Now it is to the point that you and I are nothing to each other, I can not even get you to talk to me for 10 ,minutes about the things that we need to fix here, , not love not friendship, just money, without you being able to put down your phone.

Do you realize how unfair that is? Do you even care.?

I know I have lost you as a lover and a friend, and this is not my fault. It was a choice you made. I am unable to hide my feeling and keep them inside, it hurts.

But as a true friend, if you need something just ask, stop being bull headed. I and believe me I am here to help if I can.

I am tired of being the good person, being alone, feeling empty, because no one can give me themselves like I give myself to them. When I was younger I was a so called player, not a Casanova, not a Don Won, or any of these so called great lovers, or a user.

I was searching for my soul mate, a friend, a lover, the person I would spend the rest of my life with. The down fall to this life style, is that it became comfortable, and when she did come into my life I was lost in the momentum I started. And my past activities’ came back to haunt me. I was unable to stop. And for some reason I fell into this trend for several more years. Do not get me wrong I am not making excuses, I did what I did, for no other reason than it was what I wanted to do. Now I am known as a piece of ass, a good lay, not for the man I have become. Along the way I have fathered children, do to me hurting there mothers, some call me dad, some do not. Some know me some do not, some will know me and others never will. I have my own demons that will forever follow me for this.

For anyone reading this, believe me there is a God, and there is a thing called karma. Both exist, the Karma part is this, if you hurt one person sooner or later you will get hurt. And most of the time it will be greater than the pain you caused. The God part, is as follows, when you get hurt there is someone that will always be there to help you pick up the pieces of you life.

here are the rules, , , 1. this contest will last 30 days. 2. the person who sends the most people to my page, gets 500k from me. 3. the person who sent the most people, that rate profile and hodge podge album gets 1.5 million. 4. everyone you send must list your name in the comment area, on album, or on profile page. 5. if you send the most in both areas, , , you get the 2 mil. and a bling. 6. if your people are listed and i move up 2 levels, you get an auto 11, with the rest of prizes offered.