THE TORN SOUL by Country-Girl My heart breaks My soul rages and screams How do I fix my soul Life is unbalanced and I’m lost No path to follow my dreams shattered My soul cries but there is no one to hear no one to ease the pain My children bring me happiness beyond belief And my soul cries for the loss and looks for the comfort of loving arms but finds only emptiness And rages into the black void where Love sits alone. The dream of a loving family Of children created of that love Has been yanked away and denied On knees I beg for that love and creation All the goals I set for myself and achieve never fill the emptiness I feel inside The constant feeling that I’m not good enough That something is wrong with me That I’m a failure. All I ever wanted to be was a mother and a wife I have never cared whether not I was poor or well to do I would do anything for the two children I have and would love to add to them but I’m denied And I cry. How do I find happiness again How do I find my path to follow How do I heal my heart How do I stop crying How do I stop having hope that there will be more babies one day So many questions Not a single answer WHY AM I HATED SO????

My Fairies World Poem My fairies float on breezes warm, in pastel shades they are adorned. Ribbons, bows and castles too, my fairies bring here just for you. So come with me, and enter in my fairy world - now let's begin. Tread gently on the fairies flowers, spend time with them in leafy bowers. Feel the touch as their gossamer wings brush your hand, what joy this brings. Catch hold, the trailing ribbons high, may be, you too will fly. See bubbles blown to catch the light, don't make a sound, less they take flight. Enter then their castle home, there's blue and pink, where you may roam. Drift with them among the spires. In my fairyland, no one tires. Watch them paint the butterflies, but, careful do not blink your eyes. Sometimes with butterflies they come to earth, to see what must be done. Landing in your fairy dell, but that's a secret, do not tell. Only the elves, with whom they play know they are there at the end of day. They dance together in summer glades, all this you can see as daylight fades. You will know when they've been there, pearls of dewdrops fill the air. So welcome to my fairies world: Let imagination be unfurled.

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You Are 26% Evil

A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well. In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.

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It is like sitting in a dark void. Don’t know where to turn or where to go. Lost don’t know where I’m at or where I want to go. What choices do I have? I’m scared change is in the process. Every thing is changing. There are bright spots but so many more dark ones. These are my feelings as I look out the window from my quiet ward that I keep watch over. I’m an angel in the dark of the night. I’m honor bound to bring no harm. To watch over, keep safe, and take care of the sick in the one place that is a bright beacon of light and happiness in my life, where I find pleasure and fulfillment, the hospital in the middle of the night. Here’s a thought that I have and the opinion’s of people that I would like to have. My question is “What is love? How is it shown?” and last but not least of all “If someone were to say I love you but did everything in their power to sabotage, knock you down and hurt you, do they truly love you or is it actually hate?” What are your thoughts in this?