The Truth Today, As We Grow Older
there are a million words
and thoughts not shared
and you and i are traveling on the same track
always just out of sight of one another
mostly you are ahead
reaching heights of misery
and sweet chemical release
reaching the bloodshed and emotional gore
that we chased for so very long
lost and empty on a path to an unknown end
and here is my current secret
hidden from your greater mind
your bigger heart
your faster run
that happiness doesn't fill all the holes
as great a love as i have found
on a lost and lonely way
he can't satisfy the need for you
my dangerous friend
brother in arms
and the only one who ever understood
an unending need for the inspiration
of self inflicted pain
*for my dearest friend. E.B.
Bury Your Memory
all the mistakes you had to make
just to find that empty space
and somehow through it all you knew
with these sweet dreams you could collide
this girl or that girl to keep you warm
dancing in the fog that killed or freed
convinced that you were right in wrong
beautiful sinner with a suicidal heart
born in the wrong body with the wrong mind
swallow the image or else it's all gone
blood lust of a selfish heart
you walked over all that could have been
and buried love at your door
A Pain Without Love
a curious thing,
to find you in the back of my mind
like a nightmare waiting to happen
to resurface on a beautiful day
of that night that we made life
followed by the day when your anger
and my cowardice murdered it
nothing good in the memory rough to the touch
you were sick and so was i
so here we are in a new separate happiness
i still remember our ugly days
so why are you still there?
will time bury you as i should?
are these lines under my eyes
from the days of feeding on insufficient anger
and not enough heart
