kim's blog: "."

i know im not good at writing pomes but i try like i tried with us i trusted u i told u things about me i let u in u hurt me i hurt u im not perfet i have a bad past i may drink i may smoke cigs i may have even given up my child but im not the person i used to be i stop doing drugs years ago i may smoke every now and then but to me its better than being on pills the rest of my life living in fear u used my past to hurt me u told me u would never love again to hurt me worse i didnt mean to hurt u like that but u lied u found love again rather quick i might add i never lied to u but i cant change what u belive u never met me for all i know u lied to me ever day i cared about u so much and no matter what u say to/about me i will always care about u i didnt take u soul i never had it YOU LIED TO ME u dont understand me u never did im young i have been hurt it takes more than 4 months to love someone i never met my feels do run deep but the fear is strong i have wonderful memorys about u and i have not so wonderful memorys of u i tried to show u how i felt for u i dont have money but i got what i could i love everything u got me i chresh everything u ever got me i dont know what u did with the things i got u again i will say if i knew how to give it back to u i would but that is where u have to help me now im asking for u to help me to give back what is not mine but what really hurts is u said we would be friends and u lied and using my past to hurt me thats just wrong i didnt think u was like that but i was wrong...

i cant be who u wanted me to be i am only me take me for me or dont take me at all u have a part of me i have a part of u please dont change me i will never change u i have somthing of urs a part of me says ts mine my heart says its not whenever i touch it, it makes warm inside at the same time it makes me sad i will not cry u no longer have that part of me i dont want this anymore i shouldnt have it anymore i cant go and give it to u that would hurt us to much tell me how do i give it back

u said u loved me u lied we would be frieds u lied we both had been hurt we both tried u moved to fast i got scared i ran we tried again again u went to fast i got scared i ran again i tried twice for you i did love you no i still love you i cant do it u wont forgive me im sorry i tried now im dead