So lately i have realized that half my friends are pregnant. Its so weird to know... My best friend whom i've known since 6th grade is 8 months pregnant... I just can hardly imagine it! Maybe thats cause i am not there... and i know that i am young, i am only 19. I dont have the best job, and i dont have good motivation for school, but in my heart i just want to settle down with a family. I want a baby... I dont know why. I NEVER wanted a kid; and recently in the past few months i just really want one. I want to move out, and be with a guy who actually plans on being with me. Who treats me like a girlfriend and not like a friend. Chris just isnt doing that. I dont feel like he wants to put much effort into us. And i dont feel like he loves me very much. Not to mention chris was put in school a year late... so he still has another year of high school to go through, while i am in my second year of college... I mean, idk... i kind of want a guy who KNOWS what he wants in life. And wants to start a family within the next couple of years. I just seem to have the worst luck with men =/ Maybe one day it will turn around.
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