Trying to keep things from going under and over my head,am laying on a bed of bleeding rose's.everyday I can feel there throes dig there way into me making it harder to leave, or maybe its just me the loneliness that's eats away at me brings forbidden thing's closer to me. digging my self in deep, its getting harder to see the other side is it day or night?? Keeping my self lock inside trying to hide what's really going on deep inside, looking around at everyone's eyes hoping they don't see the real me. Don't want them to see the pain I keep or the loneliness that's pulling me in deep, pushing a smile on my face everyday when am with the family.the things they say and the jokes they make hurt me deep.just keep my mouth close and play along with the jokes,  no one wants to hear me its the same old thing,but now its more then that its how am felling as each day pass. Every time I turn to somebody theres no one there.am alone with all this world of shit,am going to have to pull my self out. Only thing am too weak for everything.