xscarredx's blog: "????????"

i've been taught to work or u don't eat.....

been taught to do the job the best it can be done.....

been taught to have honor and honor those before me.....

been taught to respect those that have earned it.....

been taught to be truthful to myself and others.....

been taught to be loyal to those who have earned it because it's truely priceless.....

been taught the "golden rule".........

these things made me to the man i am yet still cannot seem to fit into the social structure of life...........

has it gone that far that it's just a myth or now must it be one of many facades u must maintain in order to survive the work place because it seems that that's how companies run instead of doing it right and getting the job done......

yet then again i've been told to cow tow,eat it,bite my tongue

and do some thing stupid which i know not to be right why why why whyWHY does being a  man change when i have to kids then how can i teach without been a role model am i to be come which is that which i despise.............

so twisted so lost and in the end every choice has a cost ...........

i must pay the cost or forever be lost.........

so my code/morals.....

truth or some sick vicious hoaxsssssssss...................

yet remember on the rode in my journeys through my experinces they have saved my life and led my always to safety even when death reared his jealous head and gazed in my eyes...........

so am i the truth or am i a hoax..........

so twisted so angered so derranged..........

so conflicted,conflicted with pain................

yet they are my bones..........

my blood................

my skin.................

my life ...............

i will not go down with out a fight .....................

vallhalla..........i will not lose my belief!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

because i will eat and feed my kin.............

cause there's always work if  your willing to work............