Hey ya'll... It's me... I figured I'd post a blog since I don't have anybody to talk to... Haven't had the greatest night... Day started off ok... Just a normal day... Didn't get outta be till prolly 2. Took a shower, got ready and went into town for awhile... Visted an old friend talked for awhile then came home... Went back into town and got supper and finally came home for the night about 6. Of course I got on here and of course nobody was on so I messed around on here and facebook for awhile... Started listening to music and started thinkin... And then of course it started... It's always bad when I actually have time to sit down and think because then it usually hits and I can't stop it! The lonliness... And of course that's what happened tonight... So I've been mopeing around the house and finally when I came to bed it really hit me! I'm just so tired of being alone! I hate it! I have nobody to hold, nobody to hold me, nobody to call mine, nobody to spend time with! I'm tired of gettin judged by how I look! I know I'm not skinny but holy shit I ain't a fucking whale! I'm tired of all the guys wanting skinny ass prissy ass bitches that look like their fuckin anerexic or a fake fucking barbie doll! I'm tired of guys not seeing what's on the inside! And then I was talking to a friend and he said that he's tired of chicks always being picky... If I was fucking picky I wouldn't fucking be alive! What I want is fucking simple!
1. Somebody to want me for me!
2. Somebody to not want just a piece of ass but to want to cuddle up with a good movie or tv show! Or even just cuddle up and fall asleep with! Yea sex is awesome but it's not the first fucking thing on my mind!
and finally 3. Somebody that won't fucking cheat! Jesus christ if you find somebody else then fucking tell me! Don't go behind my fucking back and fuck around on me! Plus... If you're with me you shouldn't want anybody else!
I'm just sick and tired of it all! Tired of always getting judged! Ya know if you really got to know me! I'm the sweetest thing there is and you'd love me to death! But No... You gotta look at how I look first and then get to know me!
I'm ready to settle down! I'm tired of gettin used! Everybody tells me I'm still young... Fuck that! I've done lived life! I want to find that special one and just start settling down!
