Had to make a big decision yesterday. Stay here for my childhood friends bday or go out of town for the weekend with someone..
I stayed.
And although I was a little bit upset a first, life has a funny way of just throwing amazing shit into your lap right when you need it the most!
I was rewarded with something so beyond amazing.
*As I stood in the crowed of many faces that seemed the same, I saw you, standing there, seeing me. You were the last person I expected to see last night, after what happened yesterday afternoon, I was not sure when I even wanted to see you again. And there you were. Standing there, seeing me.
I honestly think that for that 15 seconds, when I noticed that you had found me, had drivin up here, and found where I was, and was standing there, looking at me the way you were, was the best 15 fucking seconds of my entire life.
thank you j.r. for making me realize so many things that had been pushed away for so long, thank you.*
The funny thing is is that I KNOW that this person will never even read this, but for some reason, just writing it makes me even more happy right now.
Life is full of twists and fucked up turns.. And at some point, it has to twist it's way back to where you want it to be. Which just happened to be in the middle of a cock head bar for me last night.
Such is life...
