borred night. — Saturday, 27 May 2006
Yah, I'm just sitting in my apartment alone, sober, and bored. My friends are out of town for the "Holiday" It seems like a rather depressing day to be called a holiday though. All the way around, not just cuz I'm alone, but the whole thinking about dead people thing.
I ain't doing much. It's days like this when it seems like I should be thankfull I have ways to cope with things like this. But on the other hand, that's like being thankfull for a life full of borring lonly nights, just cuz when another one comes along, it's not so bad. It's like being happy I haven't really been with a girl much or been happy much in my life, cuz now I am uste to it, and it's not a big deal. But if I had lots of happyness in my life and was totally distraut right now because I wasn't uste to it, it seems like people would tell me I should be more thankfull for the times when my life was happy. so wich is better really? People can always put that positive or negative spin on things.
I don't have a job, but I still have lots of money. Because of my life of being alone and borred so much too. So that's nice. *laughs at all the people who have jobs and no money* What now bitches? lol. Yes, there's always that positive spin on things. Being sad doesn't do much for you anyway most of the time. Although, I can write some good stuff when I am totally depressed, and sometimes draw some really dark shit. But Those are just better reasons for people to be scared of me and increase my future lonlyness, so it's all a vicious cycly of abuse. It never ends!!! ahahaah!!!!! lol Oh yah, funny shit.
I was entertaining myself on yahoo answers agian for awhile. But eventually it gets old. I think I am going to walk over to the dollhouse, hope I don't get mugged, get drunk, play pool with myself, ( playing with myself here is getting borring ) and then eventually walk back, hoping once again not to get jumped. but hey, that could be fun, as long as I don't die or end up with any serious injurys. I will deffinantly be wearing my steel toed shoes. And probably carrying my spike on my keychain.
