free stuff. And yah, incase you missed it, I'm a sick fuck. lol. — Thursday, 27 July 2006
and friendlyness, is friendlyness. And close to godlyness?
so, I sent invites out to most of the people in my yahoo addressbook. Some of them were allready on here. and I just didn't look through it well. So if you get one of those things, sorry. I guesse the new points thing is how many people you invited to sign up. From my understanding of the context clues. Now, I'm still not sure if when you get 15 people to join, you get a free webcam? or you just are entered in a drawing to get a free webcam. If you were really desperate for that webcam, you could make a bunch of email addresses and then go in and join under each of them. If I did it, I would make some type of different little pages for each of the fake people. It could be fun actually. I could make up 15 different personallities, and go into them when I got bored, and portrayed the one I felt like doing. I could have a paranoid guy, a really conservative guy, an extreme left guy, a dog person, a cat person, a young person, an old person, a religious person, a slutty girl, an innocent girl, a stuck up predjudice person, Let's see. How many is that so far. I could just use it to designe characters. So then I could use them if I wrote a book, or movie, or videogame or something. It would be a whole made up thing. Other people have done it, so why not me I guesse. I think they are called fiction writers or something. And then there's people who do it to themselves. Just create a persona, wich ever one they think people will like best, and just try to act accordingly. I don't know, I guesse whatever works for people. Most people do that sometimes when they need to. It's just varies on the degree of it. I can be friendly when it suits me, even though I am not normally like that. Meaning if iI have to be to get something I want, or I feel it's necesarry for somereason I'll do it. But it's really not something I enjoy doing, and it's kinda putting on a show for me. It's something I'll do when I need a break from fighting with people. I guesse being friendly is like a bad habbit for me that slipps out every once in a while. So I'll just take this time to apologize to all the people I've ever been friendly to. I'm sorry, and hopefully you aren't too mad at me. lol. I talk to people when I'm really bored sometimes. And it's friendly like, when I don't feel like fighting with someone. All those poor souls who fell victims to friendlynesss............. I have a weird perception. I don't like it most of the time when people I don't know start talking to me. Even when they are just being friendly, or when the store greeter asks me how I am. I just think, do you really care? probably not, so fuck offf. So I feel like I'm bothering people by talking to them most of the time. It's not a low selfesteme thing. It's being over considerate to other's thing. I realize that talking to me, makes other people feel really small and insignificant a lot, so I don't like causing them that emotional trauma. lol. When I am being friendly I usually have a genuine concern for the people I am talking to. I don't like talking to people enough to do it purely to bullshit with them just to pass the time.
Oh, so that brings me to the next topic. Being flirty. A long time ago, I was told I was not flirty enough. So I have been working on it ever since. That way I can do it when I feel like it. It's basicly talking a lot of shit, only it's more directed at girls. It's the macho side of things on the other side. With guys it's violence, and who's the bigger badass. And then with girls it's about other things. It's not a serious sort of thing, just as it's not that serious when most guys are talking shit to each other, just being macho. What's said duing that time is all in fun. ( most of the time ) Other wise guys would constantly be like, ok prove it, getting into fights and killing people by ripping their eyeballs out and eating them, or gouging each other's heart's out with spoons, or whatever hardcore shit people were talking to out do eachother, going prove it. And girls would be going ok, prove it. People would be having sex on and undertables, eat stuff off of and out of others, and all sorts of things, at the drop of a hat. Now combine the two. That would be a fun world to live in!!!! People would be like," Really, I'll rip you eyeballs out through ways of your mouth, shove them in her ass, squish them, and then lick it all out!!! "
